Rant book

Im crying rn

Hi!! Uhhh so I'm just gonna rant cause I'm crying so if you want you can just ignore this but I'm crying cause like an hour ago I put some pasta on cause my mum forgot about dinner and went to sleep but then I forgot about it and my Nan scream about the pasta and then I went out and turned it off I cleaned out the pan and left it to soak then I kept getting screamed and so I got like sad as I did earlier when I got screamed at so then I left the kitchen came back to my room and I forgot that my headphones were stuck on my chair so then my computer got pulled down by my headphones but it knocked everything off my desk and my cup one of the three object in this house that is mine and I actually like and if I like ran away I would take but that got smashed so now I have to keep that a secret till I get superglue which is gonna be hard cause my room is being worked on right now and luckily even though my phone fell it didn't smash so that's good but now my paint water soaked my headphones so I can't even go on my computer till they dry and I can't even paint cause then I have to go to the kitchen to get new paint water and I don't want to get questioned or screamed at and now I can even sleep in my room cause my bed still has so much stuff covering it and I can't move it all on my own and my mum didn't help me clean it like she promised and earlier there was like a demon fly thing that I killed with air freshener and I just had to kill a spider that crawled on my leg and I got hit into a side/counter earlier cause I didn't give my sister back her phone case that she gave me till I got one if my own which I haven't yet and now my phone could very easily get destroyed and my mum and Nan said that because I haven't been able to get a phonecase cause I don't get pocket money and I physically can't get a job so they are the reason I don't have a phonecase but that said that because of that they wouldn't even get my phone repaired if it smashed and then my hair was supposed to be cut on the fifth of august but now I don't even know if I'm going to be able to get it cut cause my sister is getting her hair cut again which is like 30 pound and then school trousers and shirts that I don't even know if I'm getting any of I'll probably have to wear my sister's old skirt and blazer and shirts and maybe a new jumper and I don't feel comfortable with long hair but I can't say that cause my mums transphobic or at least against the surgery parts of it and no matter how much I tell her it's to feel more comfortable in their own bodies she won't listen and it's just painful to hear it like just knowing she probably won't ever accept me but anyway how you doing and sorry for bothering you also don't worry about the dinner thing!!

Ha so that's fun I just copied this from a text to my friend cause I did t want to write it again and my vision is getting blurry from tears and I'm kinda thinking about like sleeping in my chair now so also if anyone want to vent so it in the comments only if you want tho and I'll try my best to give advice:) anyway I hope you all have a great day!! Or night or whatever time it is for you right now !!!

-Luca