My diary

How I turned to the Villain...

"No get out of my brain! No, I won't listen to you aaah, get out, get out!" I scream as I try to reach the knife.

Fighting against myself has always been brutal, but this fight was my most exhausting fight.

"What nonsense are your trying, darling?" My left hand squeezed my right hand tight. So tight that I heard my bones breaking.

"AAAH leave me alone, please! Get out, get out of my brain! Give me my body back!" I scream as loud as I can, or at least that was what I thought. 

I hoped for someone to come and rescue me, but of course no one came to safe the hero.

As I try to understand why no one comes to help me, I come to the realization that I never actually screamed, I only laugh maniacally."Ha Ha Ha Ha you are so weak and you call yourself a hero, darling? Give me the control and I will make you stronger than everybody! They will finally praise you and realize what a great hero you were! Give in to the darkness, darling and I will make your dreams come true! We both know you want to treat everybody as bad as they treat you. I can help you get your deserved reve-" "Nooo STOP please! They they will find out the truth without me changing, they will. I-I know it! Please leave..." I cry and fall to my knees."Oh will they? Say it to me with confidence, oh right you can't because we both know you are lying! Ha Ha Ha!" With my last strength I try to fight my left hand, which already got possessed by this demon, who corrupted my mind and is now trying to bring me to insanity. "Yes, I can feel the knife! Now I only need to move it to my heart and then I am free from it!" I really thought this was my glimpse of hope, but who has thought that this was my end.

"AAAH what what happened now? My my left arm, it it is bleeding, but but I didn't do anything?" As my blood is slowly dropping on my white wooden floor, leaving marks that would forever remind me of this day, I feel my sanity drop for the last time."I am helping you. You wanted to hurt me, so I made it easier for you and did it myself. Isn't that what you wanted, hurting me, darling? Well did you expect to feel no pain at all? Well for that you need to sign my contract and give me the whole control, but I think I am wasting my time here!"I knew that if I wanted to kill this demon, who is a part of me, I had to give up my life, but is it really worth it? Is it worth it to safe them from myself if they wouldn't even appreciate the things I have done for them? How much things do I need to sacrifice for them that they would finally care for me? Is it really worth it to feel all this pain for people who cause me this pain?"Wait, don't go, I accept, your contract!" I cry and loose my grip from the knife."Yes, Hahahaha Hahaha you won't regret it, darling! I promise!"

And this is, how I, the hero, gave in to the pain and the darkness that has slowly filled my heart. So now you know how they made me the villain. Now you can judge if I am really the bad person here or if I am the victim!