The Last Chapter

The first and last chapter

Hello, my name is Rika Nagase. I am a 16yo girl and I don't like to live.My hair is black like my eyes, I have dark circles  and my eyes are cold. I still go to school like everyday, I study. My parents died in a car accident 2 years ago and my brother left me and went to another country, we don't talk to each other anymore. I don't have any more family, I stay all by myself with some money my parents had in their bedroom and as a part time job, I work at a little shop.
And I don't have any friends at school, but there is a girl who is good to me and talkes sometimes with me. She is a blonde tall girl, with a cute voice, eyes Blue like an ocean...Her personality was perfect. She does a lot of sport, she likes volleyball and I watch her matches when I can.
I get bullied but not a lot, I go to the school nurse so often that she even prepared first before I came to her again.

     ~In Class~

-Have you seen that guy?He is so handsome!! I think he and Suzuke will be a good couple!!!
-Omg, you are right!
[Suzuke Horikita]: What the hell are you girls talking about? I don't even like men.
-We are sorry...
|When I heard that in class, I was kinda happy because Suzuke is my crush and I've been liking her for a long time.., she gave me hope in life, you know?|
[Hori] (Suzuke's bsf): Yeah..but don't be silly to like a person like Nagase...She is kinda weird, okay Suzu?
-Haha, I think she heard you..!
[Suzuke]: Just leave her alone...She is not weird!I am actually her friend.
|In this moment I really felt something...I was happy! She even looked in my eyes with a shiny pretty-looking face,smiled and told me "Please don't be afraid to ask for help, okay?" And then I smiled at her and said "Yes" then her friends and her left and went to the next class|
When I was in the hallway, two boys came at me and started to punch me and said "It doesn't hurt, right?Haha" , I didn't understand why they did that to me, but I got used to it.
The next day, Suzuke asked me if after school I would like to go shopping with her, I ofc said yes and I loved that day!
After 2 weeks I finally confessed to Suzuke and she told me "Sorry, I can't."
The next day at school she ignored me and I just sat on my chair all day at school.When I was heading home, I saw Suzuke. She was with a girl. That girl was a really good friend of her, that's what I thought until I saw them kissing and calling each other "my love". Suzuke and Ange were girlfriends. I was sad because I liked Suzuke for almost 2 years and we were like "friends" cause she said that. I regret confessing my feelings for her :/ ...
    I haven't seen her since that day.
When I was at job, my boss got mad at me and punched me in the face, he was really angry and fired me. I still got paid but it was all a waste of time and money.
-After a week-
Oof, what can I do now? I don't have hope in my life anymore. I should have listened to my brother. Back then, before he left, he told me:
"You should just give up, you are not gonna be something in life, just wake up and see with your eyes the reality!"
At first I didn't realize, but he was right. What the f*ck do I do know?That is what I was questioning..But after 3 days, I finally decided what to do. I didn't have much things in life to care about.
  The only thing I cared about left me all alone. I lost her, I thought maybe I will have a future with her, but to be honest I realize now that I was so stupid to think like that. Nobody ever liked me in this way or other. Everybody I have met disliked me or hated me, even my brother like tf?
Oof, the only thing I can do now is just to give up :) I didn't have the worst life, but it was still bad.

              ~The next morning~
  I got dressed and went to a deep bridge. I'm tired of life and I decided to take it. I took off my shoes to show that it wasn't a homicide. I looked around and saw nobody.
  I took a deep breath and I jumped peacefully.
That was my last chapter...