Prologue:
I don't really know why my heart finds it hard. Is it me or my broken heart, wouldn't it heal to breathe in my soul or dump my falling tears to leave this world. When I always tried to see her, when i always tried to approach her; an idea hits my mind that she would refuse me to be her love and it simply happened after her soften words came out of her mouth "I like you too, but not that way and your just really a friend to me" she couldn't approve it, neither believe in it and not even imagine it happened to be her. Her thoughts and everybody's thoughts were based on me as a literature geek who could never fall in love but she was shy, fearful and surprised. What type of love could that be for god's sake, I mean she never really talked to me and she doesn't know me well, except for that geek, everybody gossips about. I weren't able to force her love me, but to show her that I am able of loving her no matter what she thought of me back.
If it takes me to change to make her love me, so let it be. A trait that she can never shares with anybody is that she is unique and the right girl for me. A feeling that she can never shares with anybody, but except for me is the right feeling she has to consider is her only destiny. She had the right to refuse the idea of liking me, because her heart was never close to me before. We never shared any moments together in talking or getting to know each other and this really hurts to know. It was simply miserable to me, it was sorrow that ran through my energy and everything became blank that I couldn't face the wind when it gusted on my figure. I told her quickly and worriedly "Dana, I ... I really ... I really like you" her face expression wasn't shocked that a geek like me would fall in love with a chick like her; she was astonished, happy, but dimly. A smile widened her face when the hallway was empty and we gazed at each other with deep, tension holding our eyes in place. I was afraid, I felt that she would refuse it easily like she did in my dream and it unfortunately did, but for a reason.
