Complicated

Chapter 10

Taylor and I were now upstairs and I was still thinking... "Why Shawn?" "What babe?" Tay said. Oh shit, I said that out loud. "Uhm... Nothing..." I said awkwardly "Brooklyn Marie Espinosa. I may have only known you for one month... Well tomorrow. I know you better than you know yourself, I know there's something wrong." Tay said. He's so sweet! "O-Okay... Well when we came downstairs from... Yenno, Shawn was silent and he's never like that with me, and then when we walked upstairs he scoffed and was glaring at you." I finally let out. "Babe, just go talk to him." Taylor said. "Okay." I said getting up.

I walked downstairs and saw everyone else still down there, except.... Shawn. Where is he? I'll go check in his room. I walked in his room and didn't see him. So I walked into his bathroom to see him crying, holding a blade, about to slide across his skin. I ran over grabbed the blade, held it tight in my hand while hugging him even tighter. I could feel the blade cutting my hand as Shawn cried into my shoulder, but I didn't care. Shawn cried for another minute until we separated and I opened my hand to see it drenched in blood. I got up, washed my hands dried them and then grabbed Shawn's hopefully only blade and put it in the toilet and flushed it. He started crying even more. I went back and sat on his lap so I could give him a better and tighter hug. We just sat like that until my eyes started getting heavy and then everything went black.

I woke up and didn't see my room. I turned around to see a sleeping.... Shawn. He looked so cute--- no. Stop Brooke! You love Taylor! My thoughts were interrupted by hearing "morning beautiful" it was Shawn. "Good morning Shawn." I said starting to get up. "Wait." Shawn said grabbing my right wrist. He turned me around and stood up still holding my wrist. He let go of my wrist and grabbed my waist. He leaned in, and I leaned in back? Then our lips crashed into each other's. Our lips moved in sync. We went over to the bed and he got on top of me. He slipped off my shirt so I was left in my sports bra. Then he pulled off my joggers. Then I flipped us over and slid his shirt off. Then I pulled his sweats off to see his HUGE bulge... I was about to pull down his boxers when I thought to myself, Wait. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING!? I jumped up put my clothes on and ran into my room.

"Hey babe I--" I cut Taylor off by slamming the bathroom door and sliding down the wall across from it and cried silently. "Babe. What's wrong?" He said "n-n-nothing." I stuttered. "Babe. I know something's wrong." He stated. I just stayed silent. After two minutes of silence I heard the door click. Shit. There's a key to the bathroom. He looked me in the eyes and I just looked down. I hate myself so much for that. It's our one month anniversary and I kissed Shawn! I'm such a fuck up. What's the point of my life anymore. Then I felt two strong arms pick me up and lay me on my bed. It was Taylor. Then Joy and Matt came in. Matt was saying "hey guys wanna go to--- Brooke what the fuck happened?!" I just looked at them and cried. When I looked at anyone I loved right now I just thought of what I did to Taylor. Joy ran out and ran back in with Sky 30 seconds later. When sky saw me she yelled "if you're not Brooke Joy or me get the fuck out!" "I'm staying because I'm her brother and she needs me even if she can't admit it." Matt said. Sky looked at me with a questioning look and I nodded. "Okay, correction. Taylor get the fuck out because we need to talk to her." He walked out but before the door shut he looked at me with sad eyes. Sky slammed the door and all three of them ran up to my bed and sat next to me. "What's wrong b?" Matt asked... "I-I-I ch-cheated" I sniffled. "Aww. Taylor will forgive you I promise." Matt said. "I-I don't think he will." I said. Then Tay barged in and looked mad sad sympathetic and disappointed at the same time. Then he said "y-y-you cheated on me?" A tear slid down his cheek but he quickly wiped it away. "I-I-I'm s-so sorry." I said "I am too." He said walking out. I started crying even harder. Then Cam and Nash walked in. They looked at me and said "why?" "I-I don't know." I said they just shook their heads and walked out. Wow, now 2 of my best friends are against me, I think me and Tay broke up and Shawn and I probably aren't talking now too. All I have are Matt Sky and Joy. Matt and joy are pretty much forced too. "C-c-can I be alone?" I said. They all nodded and walked out.

I ran into the bathroom and broke my razor. I got the actual blade out of it and looked at it and smiled. The one thing I can always trust. A razor. I pressed it against my skin and saw a line of blood run after. I kept doing that until 12 times. I started getting really light headed, and before I knew it everything. Went. Black.

💎Matt's pov💎

It's been an hour and a half since we left Brooke's room. I decided to go check on her. I got up and walked upstairs. I went in her room and she wasn't in there. So i went to check the bathroom... It's locked. I grabbed the key from the top of the door frame and unlocked the door. I opened it to reveal a sight I never want to see again. It was Brooke. Blood all over. I screamed and ran to her. "SOMEONE CALL 9-1-1!!!" I yelled. I took my shirt off, wrapped it around her arm and picked her up bridal style. I ran downstairs. "Did anyone fucking call 9-1-1?!" "No. We didn't think it was a big deal." Nash said. "What the fuck is wrong with you!? She's unconscious! And where are Joy and Sky?!" I asked pissed. "They went to the mall an hour ago." Cam said while Taylor got his phone out dialing 9-1-1. "Finally someone fucking smart enough to call them! God what the fuck is wrong with you two!? And where's Shawn?" I said still mad. "He's upstairs." Nash said. 2 minutes later o hear sirens. I run out and they put her in the gurney. When I walked toward them they said "family only." Then I heard a voice behind me say "I'm her boyfriend and this is her brother." It was Taylor. "Okay fine." He said. They usually only let one in but I guess not this time.

🌸Brooke's pov🌸
I woke up in a bed. All the walls in the room I was in were white, I didn't like it. And they were also an ugly pastel green. Ew. Then I looked over to see Taylor sleeping with a tear stained face. Next to him were Sky, Joy, Matt, Nash, Cameron, and even Shawn. And on Taylor's other side were a bunch of machines... I know where I am now, a hospital. But why? Oh wait... I looked at my wrist and let out a whimper because I felt so pathetic. They probably just think I'm an attention whore... "Hey" I heard Taylor say "hi..." I said awkwardly putting my head down. "Hey. Lift your head up princess, your crown is falling." He said lifting my chin. I smiled slightly and Taylor wiped a tear away that I didn't know existed. "Why are you being so nice?" I question. "What?" He said. "Why are you being so nice when I-I cheated on you..." I said. "Well, I think I over reacted." He said. "What the fuck Tay. Over reacted? More like under reacted. You should be screaming at me right now but I'm yelling at you because your being to nice! I did an unforgivable thing." I said/yelled. "Babe. Everyone makes mistakes... Including me..." He said looking down. "What the actual fuck Taylor?" I said "well I kissed sky the other night and it got a little intense and..." He said but I cut him off. "DID YOU FUCKING HAVE SEX WITH HER!?" I screamed waking everyone up. "Well." Taylor said tears now running down his face. "I'm fucking done. Get me off of these machines I'm leaving." I said. "Well actually you can't." Matt joined in. "Why." I said pissed off. "Because... The doctors found something."