Rewriting Fate (Good Girls Series #5)

Chapter 52: Status

Almira Maricar Han

I dusted off the grave of our former professor.

A tear fell down from my eye while watching Blaze lighting the candle.

I offered a silent prayer and expressed my gratitude to her while my eyes were closed. I also apologized for what I did to her son. I bit my lower lip when I felt Blaze's presence beside me.

"Kaya pala may kakaiba akong naramdaman sa kanya." Blaze whispered, "Kaya pala malapit ang loob ko sa kanya, kaya pala lagi niyang kinukurot ang pisngi ko kapag walang nakakakita sa amin, kaya pala lagi siyang nakangiti." My heart ached for him, nakakasama niya na pala ang totoong ina noon pa man pero hindi niya alam. "She was the one who helped me when I am having difficulties with my lessons. She is the professor that taught me so many lessons. The way she smiled before when I was introducing in front of the class, the way she called me 'anak', the way she messed up my hair... Shanice, nanay ko na pala 'yon!" His voice broke kaya mas rumiin ang pagkakakagat ko sa labi.

I opened my eyes and looked at him, agad niyang pinunasan ang luha.

"Shanice, that time when I was in the plane, I prayed for your safety, I prayed that you will realize that I won't really come. Kasi hindi matanggap ng sistema ko na ni isang paalam lang ay wala akong nasabi sa 'yo." His bloodshot eyes looked at me, "It's okay if you will hurt me after, what matters the most is you're fine... my love is fine." I smiled a bit, pero ramdam ko ang pagtulo ng luha sa mga mata ko. "H-Hindi ko alam... Shannaiah, hindi ko alam na... na nagkasakit ka. Hindi ko alam na... may death threats. I am sorry..."

"I am sorry, Blaze." I whispered, shaking my head. "If there's someone who should say sorry, that should be me---"

"No, no, don't say that," Umiiling na sabi niya. "Wala kang kasalanan."

"Sorry for hurting you, for pushing you and for telling hurtful words to you. I am sorry if I was blinded by anger and wrath that I didn't even listen to your reasons. I am sorry if you suffered."

"I still love you." He held my cheeks and wiped my tears using his thumbs. "Kahit anong pagtaboy mo sa akin, ikaw lang ang mahal ko."

"Bakit ba hindi mo ako kayang kagalitan? Blaze, I am so wrong here. Sensitive na nga ako, mababaw at masama ang ugali, nginingitian mo pa rin ako!?" pasalamat siya at nasa sementeryo kami kaya hindi ako makasigaw.

"Because when my Mom's alive, she used to tell me that a criminals always have reason. No matter how awful they became, the good things he or she did must not be set aside," he said, hindi pa rin binibitawan ang mukha ko. pakiramdam ko naman ay nag-init ang pisngi ko roon. He smiled and kissed the top of my head like what he used to do back then. "Ihahatid na kita. Are you still coming back to your office?" he asked, I just shook my head.

"Pagod na ako, Blaze," sagot ko. He nodded his head and finally let go of my cheeks.

"I will send you to your unit," he said. I nodded my head and smiled.

We rode in his car. We were both silent the whole drive, naramdaman ko na ang mga mata kong nanghihina na sa pagod, puyat at pag-iyak kaya nakatulog ako.

I woke up hugging a pillow. Pagmulat ko ng mata ay bahagya akong napangiti nang makitang nasa unit na ako. I am still wearing my working clothes kaya tumayo ako para mag-shower pero agad ding napangiwi nang maramdaman ang hapdi sa tuhod.

Ah! I was bruised and wounded. Mukhang nagamot na rin dahil nakabalot na ng gauze.

Tiniis ko 'yon para maligo, nang matapos ay binalot ko lang ang sarili sa towel bago lumabas ng banyo na pakanta-kanta pa pero agad din akong nanigas na kinatatayuan nang makita ang lalaki na nagse-serve ng lasagna sa table. His eyes wandered around my body before he avoided, he even swallowed. Habang ako naman ay nanigas talaga, literal.