Growing up , I always wanted to be on the stage performing Infront of the crowd that Id call my fans
I love dancing .... A lot but and I'm good at rapping too .... My voice was okay? I guess
At 7 years I told my parents about it and ... They support me , take me to dance class as well as having voice lessons
From that day on I started honing myself , preparing myself for the future , for my dream , I actually have a dance group that I'm in which is called We Za Cool
At the age of 14 I audition to a korean agency who happens to held it on my country home , Thailand
There was something in me that convince me to audition , and so I did , I told my parents and they say 'if that's what you want the Were here to support you' I cried at that , I'm lucky I have a supportive parents like them
Honestly, steeping in to the building with other auditioners was a bit intimidating, They all look so great practicing but .... My mom was there to cheer me up
I was a bit nervous , I mean I'm hell 200 % nervous , especially when my number was being called
I thought my butt was glued on the chair but my mom held my hand and told me to go and don't let the opportunity pass so I did
I release the pressure and breathe before stepping on the stage , the moment I was there in the middle , I looked around , people were looking at me , waiting as well as the judge
I breath as I close my eyes , I said those words to my head that 'this is it , that's my crowd , let's do it!' When I open my eyes they were still watching me
"You ready?" I nod and the music starts , I dance on the song as if it was my own , the first few seconds were silent then Later on claps echoed
I stopped after the song stopped
After my performance, we went home , I kinda don't expect to receive a call so I just forget it
But then my mom received a call, I passed !
And that became my open door to what I dreamed off
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"Hey what's up?" I smiled , It's Jennie
"Hi , what are you doing here?" I just finished practicing for a dance cover and currently looking at the glass window of the building
"Am I not allowed? I brought you lunch " she sat beside me and I smiled
"Awe thank you Nini" she just showed me her gummy smile
"So what are you thinking?" She always ask me things
"Just how far I've been , and getting what I wanted " almost
She smiled again and hug me "I'm so proud of you , we all are , Jisoo and chae and our fans , especially your parents
I smiled , she snuggled to my chest "I'm all sweaty you know?" She just chuckled
"Do I look like I care?" I just shook my head smiling and hug her more
I'm slowly getting what I dreamed off , I'm slowly getting what I want
Our cuddles were interrupted by a knock and then a head popped in
"Hi Lisa , Jen your boyfriend's here " Jennie immediately jerked up and so did I
"Really? Tell him I'll be there in a s-"
"No need for that, flowers?" Kai went in with a smile on his face and Jennie mirrored it , I watched as she receives the flowers but I tear my gaze when they shared a kiss
"Oh Hi Lisa? Do you mind if I borrowed Jen for a while?" I looked at her and smile
"What are you saying? Of course she's your girlfriend after all" they both smiled
"Thanks Lisa , so Jen should we go?" She nods and about to Leave but
"Lili?"
"Hmm?"
"I'm proud of you ,see you later okay?" I smiled and nod
And off she goes with him
I got everything I wanted
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Except her , Jennie Kim
I slumped back on the floor leaning my back on the glass window
She's the one I wanted now but
I guess I don't always get what I want, not her
She belongs to someone else , not mine .
