I thought I was gay, until I saw you..

Saw you first

I knew I'm gay since I was in 7th grade when Natasha tried to kiss me and I can't stop myself to feel like I wanted to puke right there when she got closer. I couldn't help it even when Natasha the girl with two pig teals running while crying her eyes out because of the rejection. That's not the only thing that made me sure I'm gay. At 8th grade when everyone drooling themselves out when Sara the most beautiful girl in primary school walk in the corridor, I can only roll my eyes and thinking how Cliff , Sara's boyfriend at that time was totally hot.

Yes the thing is, I'm 24 years old and I dated 4 hot gay guys and I can confirm myself, I am Evan, and I'm totally gay. Until Juliet walk out from the Starbucks I was passing by to my office every morning and bump into me. That day my heart literally shaking just by the look of her dark brown eyes and messy curly hair. I can't help but think again, am I really gay?

Juliet at that time was someone I never met. She work in 4th floor of my 11th floor office. She is one of the new human resources admin while I'm the editor manager in one of the biggest magazine in New york. She is the most beautiful woman I ever set my eyes on, even my mom is not as pretty as her. I'm super shock the moment I confuse myself with my heart when I saw her.

I can't help but try to talk to her. "Hello. Apologize, I didnt see you just now."

Juliet stand up and clean up her flower dress. "Hey, Its alright, I also didnt see where I'm going." She answered with smile.

Her dark brown eyes look at me with curiosity. "I'm Evan, nice to meet you." I introduced myself politely.

"Hai, I'm Juliet. I saw you a few times in the office lift actually."

"Did you? I never notice before, are you working in Story Magazine too?"

"Yes, I'm in the human resource department, just an admin actually."

"Oh I see. We should eat lunch together sometimes." I offered directly. "If you want of course."

She smiled, "of course. It would be my pleasure." She actually blushed a little and look kinda shy.

"Lets head back to the office, lunch time will be over soon." I offered while looking at my watch.

"Lets." She smiled and walk beside me.

"How long did you work here?"

"Its my first year actually, I just graduated college."

"Oh , NYU?"

"Yes. You are too?"

"I graduated 3years ago. I graduated early."

"How old are you? Coz we look like the same age."

"I'm 21. But I got an early start in uni."

"Oh, I'm 20. You are the genius manager in our company then." She look like she aware of something. If she know about the 'genius manager' title that people made of me, she must know that I'm gay. Coz last year someone caught my ex kissed me in front of our company and the whole office is on fire. The ladies are crying coz they think I'm such a waste, a handsome genius manager is gay.

I chuckled and shake my head. "People are funny with their nickname sometimes."

She looked away for a second and smile at me. "I guess."

We walked through the lift and she pressed number 4 and 11. She remembered where my office was. I cant help but feel the need to know her phone number, as if I'm going to ask her out. "May I know your phone number? So I can ask you out for that lunch?" I asked hopefully.

She looked taken back for awhile but recovered soon and told me her number. After I saved her phone number, I dialled in front of her to let her know my number.

"Guess see you soon then, Evan?" When she reached her floor.

I smiled at her, "See you soon, Juliet."

When the lift door closed I keep thinking why I'm reacting this way. I'm sure that I'm gay, but why the interest with Juliet. I guess I need to spend more time with her to know the answer.