I'm doing really well right now. My family situation is getting better. Maybe i'm just being shielded from whatever's really happening, that is if there really is anything wrong going on that i don't know about. However after my outburst in my drunken state they've started being better in a way. Not as toxic anymore and i'm treated better. It doesn't excuse how my dad acted in the past nor how he treats other people besides me, but i feel better now that he isn't cold or monotone or aggressive towards me anymore.
On a side note, I can listen to love songs and not think about her anymore. :) I don't feel my heart drop when i think about her anymore and for that i'm proud of myself. I've moved on.
-s
9/4/2021
