soul of the rhythm

Ununderstandable Feeling

"People love to do things that make them happy, though they know that what they feel can reverse"

Soul of the rhythm: chapter 1

they say time heal all wounds but, honestly speaking it doesn't it just let us forget yet it couldn't help people like me. let's say that it's some sort of gift but also a reason for a nightmare.

Hi, I'm Trinity Celeste. I came from a family known for their love through music. but unlike them... let's just say that, I'm different. it's not that I don't love music like my ancestors do. it's just that music isn't for me, my parents wanted me to play on the piano recital and be famous musicians like them.
they tried to teach me how to play different kinds of instrument yet, they say i am best at playing string oriented instruments and piano is what i chose to focus on.

so, i am here practicing piano for the recital, but the thing is....

"again from the top, your music has no emotion, find some anger, some pain, or love, just find something" my piano teacher eagerly said

I quietly obeyed. from there we started again and again, holding the same reason.

" if people see that you, yourself can't feel what you are playing, what more the people hearing your music." my teacher put one of his hand on his forehead, as if he was stressed.

" you may now leave, i will deal with her from here." my dad said out of no where, made me still.

"play" dad said

and there like a cracked stone, I'm now covered with fear, what if dad give a punishment if I do a mess thing...
there on my dad's gaze I am at a state of paranoia. but still, I manage to make myself act normal...

( playing: canon D )

while I was at the middle of playing
when my dad suddenly...

He hit his walking stick on the floor, and it made me startled

I just miss a note!! What have I done...

AGAIN!!! "I was so frightened, I could not hold back my tears...

He stared at me with an angry gaze, which made me froze on the spot.

" You think you can do better by crying? Pull yourself together you cannot do any mistake while at stage, you will bring shame to this family..." He walk his way to the door, or so i thought...

He stopped half way and said..

" Practice until you can do it perfectly, you will only stay here in the piano room and practice, no supper for you..."

Then he barge out of the room..

There I was left. Why every time he was here I felt like the world just caught me red handed. But I have no choice music is part of the family tradition and as the only heir of the Celeste's, do I have a choice

I was cut off my thoughts when my mom came to the room and hug me directly.

"Everything's gonna be alright." she said, then gave me her sweet smile...

at this moment that smile, I really adore mom. she can smile sweetly as if the world is the safest place, even though it isn't really

"how about this I'll stay for awhile, I'll be your audience and your teacher??" she said still holding the same smile

"thanks, mom..." I replied blankly

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I played the piano in front of her. while I was playing she would dance gracefully within the rhythm of the music. it made me feel at ease... every time that I hit the wrong note, mom would intentionally make the wrong dance move, like sometimes while doing a pirouette she would fall on her own feet then she would come near me and give me a peck of kiss on my forehead.

"hahahah, hhhmmm I'm not as good as before at dancing..." she said sweetly, but I can see how much she would likely want to cheer me up...

mom held my hand and made me stand, it made me confused for some reason

"come here" she said with her sweet voice then guided me to where she danced.

she's taught me how to dance how to dance... and it felt like I am floating on the clouds while dancing, I feel so free...

this time, my mom got back at the piano and she played it... the way she played it has so many flaws, but I don't understand why, but i just can't stop myself from moving freely as if I'm dancing....

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as she stopped playing the piano, she wiped the tear that fell from her eye, and said

" that's it for to day, you can rest now... tomorrow will be another day"

After mom said that she rushed out of the room, as if something was the matter...
I followed her secretly. She went to a room

"I haven't seen this room before" I whispered to myself "or maybe I was just too caught up with responsibilities that i never had time to know things way better"

The room so clean, the floor was so shiny, it was surrounded with glass walls

At a corner there were sets of pointe shoes arranged on a shelf... Mom, took a pair then wear it. Beside the shoe shelf was a dress cabinet, mom opened it. I was so astonished on how elegant the designs of sets of tutus, she picked i don't know, she just picked the set of dress randomly....

Then she went to center of the room... As for what i see, she moved as of her body doesn't have weight, as if she was a feather falling from high grounds...

I was so mesmerized by the way my mom danced, that I didn't notice that I accidentally moved the vase from the shelf i was hiding

"Who's there? "

Oh no...