Attempts

Chapter I: Try

I sighed, getting up from my bed as my moms voice filled my ears.
"KYLE, GET UP NOW! I'VE MADE PANCAKES AND I DON'T WANT THEM TO GET COLD!" I got up slowly, yelling back,
"COMING MA!" I got changed, as I ran down the stairs.
I quickly ate, as I ran back upstairs to brush my teeth, hoping I wasn't late.
I got to the bus stop on time, as Cartman was right behind me.
"Hey-"
"Shut up, fatass." I immediately replied, as he scoffed.
"Well for a matter of a fact-" The bus came, as I quickly got on before any of them. Stan sat next to Wendy.
They always sit together.
Kenny sat next to me, as I looked over, just to put my head on the window again.
"Kyle, are you ok dude?" He asked me.
"Yes." I looked over to Stan, as Wendy was mad at him again. He probably ditched her on accident again, idiot.
Kenny wrapped his arm around me. I felt warmth come to my face, it was most likely red.
I guess it feels good for someone to care.
I don't like him though.
I like girls, not guys.
Right?
"Kyle, it's okay. You don't have to tell me dude!" He exclaimed, I smiled at him.
"Thanks dude."
Cartman looked behind his seat at us, laughing.
"Oooo, are you two gonna make out now?"
Kenny laughed, replying,
"You'd probably love to watch us." Cartman smirked, as they both started to laugh and talk about girls.
I rolled my eyes, as I smirked too. Kenny was pretty perfect, except from the fact he is really greasy. His shower doesn't work anymore, so he usually smells bad, but I don't care. He's still cool, and we're also going to Stan's house tonight for a sleepover, other than that he has a really nice smile, I've seen it once or twice. He took off his hoodie and we saw the gap, I found that cute- nice.
Maybe I do like him, as a super best friend. I used to have the same admiration to Stan, but I never actually felt like this I guess.
I don't know, maybe I'll ask Craig or Tweek.
The bus stopped, as I looked at the high school South Park managed to make. It was small, but also pretty big.
Eh, I don't care.
I walked into the school as voices filled my ears. I hated that.
I hate loud places, especially here.
I used to cover my ears, but now I can handle it better.
I went to my locker, as I saw Tweek and Craig.
I wonder if they have the same thoughts as I have with Kenny.
Am I gay?
I'll see, I just don't know. I hate being confused, it feels like my head is being bashed in.
Oh no, I was staring for too long, I'm being flipped off by Craig.
I looked back at my locker, grabbing my stuff as the bell rang.
Cartman snickered.
"What's with you and that gay ass shit?" Cartman whispered into my ear, I shoved him away.
"Shut up! I'm not gay!" I hissed at him, as he shrugged.
"Sure, but I know somethings up with you and Kenny." He laughed, I glared at him as I walked to class, sitting down as I hyperventilated.
What does he know? I don't like Kenny. I like girls ONLY!
I don't like Kenny.
I looked at him.
I obviously don't like him! Yeah!
Until he caught me staring, I looked away.
Damn, that's embarrassing.
It's fine, I'll just talk to someone about this, and they'll tell me I am not gay.
Please someone, just tell me I'm not.
"Broflovski?" I heard, everyone was out of class.
"Are you feeling okay." I coughed.
"Yes! Yes I am, okay I gotta get to my other class." I ran, as he looked confused.
I went to my next class, going to the bathroom right when I placed my stuff down.
I heard someone walk in, as I looked over.
Tweek Tweak.
I'll ask him.
"Uh, Tweek!" I waved, he looked at me confused.
"Uh.. yeah?" He awkwardly waved back.
How did I even start this awkward?
"Dude, I need your advice."
"MY ADVICE? THATS WAY TOO MUCH-" I shushed him.
"Listen, I have been having.. strange thoughts about Kenny. Like how perfect he is I guess. I'm not comparing myself to him just.. I don't know." I sighed, he looked at me nervous.
"Dude- LETS TALK WITH CRAIG AT THE COFFEE SHOP OKAY?" He told me, as I nodded, washing my hands as I walked out of the bathroom.

I was back in class, as I sat back. Waiting for the day to end.
Wait, I didn't ask him what time?!
God damn, I'm an idiot.

Class ended, as I went up to Token.
"Yo, what's Tweek's number?" He looked at me suspiciously.
"Why?"
"We're supposed to be meeting up somewhere, but I didn't ask him what time and I don't know where he is."
"Oh, here." He showed me his number, as I put him in my phone texting him,

Uh, hi. It's Kyle, I don't know what time you wanna meet up. So if you could just tell me what time that would be great."

Hi we can meet up at 5

Okay.

I shut off my phone, it was the end of the day so I walked out.
2 more hours till I meet him and Craig.
Fucking Craig, whatever it's fine I'll just try to talk to Tweek more.
Craig's a dick.
Me, Stan, Cartman and Kenny hate him. So I'll try to be as nice as possible.

Yo

Who are you?

Craig, just texting you if anything changes.

Ok.

K.

Whatever.
I went home, as I mentally prepared myself for a talk.
They just have to tell me I see him as a super best friend, I am not gay.
That's all I need to hear.
God, Cartman has really gotten into my head.
Fucking dick. I hate him.

I walked to the coffee shop.
I am not gay, it's okay. All I need is for gay people to tell me that it's just friendly thoughts.

I walked into the coffee shop, seeing Craig and Tweek sitting there. I sat down with them.
"So, what's this about?" Craig asked.
"I don't know, I guess Cartman just got into my head recently. I've been feeling really different around Kenny I guess. I also cannot stop thinking about him, but this happened with me and Stan once just different."
Craig laughed, as Tweek elbowed him.
"Uh- Well!" He tried to say something, Craig sighed.
"I don't know much about this, I realized a different way but, you're definitely gay." My heart stopped for a second.
"God damnit okay." I sighed.
"If it makes you feel better I can help you get with him." I shrugged.
"No, it's fi- wait, but nobody in our group uh.."
"I know. But Kenny doesn't care, we hang out sometimes." I nodded, that's why days he told us he couldn't hang out.
"Oh, well do you guys know anyone who got out of being gay? Or do I have to wait?" Tweek sighed as Craig laughed.
"Nope, you can't hide from who you are dude." Craig told me, I groaned.
I wish I could.
"Maybe you guys could just tell me I'm not gay?" Craig this time sighed.
"Listen dude! You can't just hide from it, trust me it doesn't work. Just accept it. It's okay." Tweek told me, I smiled at him, as Craig put his arm around him.
"I'll.. try to accept it."
I'll try.