It's shameful to know the kind of things that does happen on an everyday basics. I am 16 years of age and sometimes get tired of people telling me when to go out and when not to go out. I wonder sometimes if my parents were ever young and wanted to see how life is in reality. Being me is difficult I have two sisters and two brothers, it's funny because my parents treat them better than me very often i feel as if I am an outsider. My sisters run things in their school which is Northeastern College and I on the other hand can't even get my friends to take me serious, I don't have a lot of friends only four and at times I wonder why I ever became friends with them. The world outside seems to be a bed of roses but in general I think that it is very hard and difficult to survive:(
It's along time since i had somebody to talk to and now it have this very hot and handsome boy that is a transfer student and now we are together and he really does understand me. Sometime he would ask me out but i would say no only because my parents don't allow it. At times he would get angry with me because he would really want to take me out and then he would listen to what i have to say and understand me. I remember when i was like 12 years old i use to always tell my mom that i would never have a boyfriend and she would look at me and say " That is what you feel."
I think that mom use to say the same to her mom when she was young that is why she knew. You see I also have a problem with my parents because I love to dance and they don't want me to do what I love;'( Hopefully they will understand one day, i wonder sometimes to myself how come my friends get to go out and stuff and i don't and I'm 16. Everybody does be talking about how it was when they when someway and I would just wonder to myself if I would ever get to hang with friends to? But its ok I will get my turn to have a life without my stupid parents interrupting.
My sisters are much more prettier than me cause they can get the most popular boy in school to go out with them sometimes i feel left out and jealous. My sister Stephanie gets whatever she wants whenever she wants and likes to rule people and make fun out of other children that is attending our school maybe she is the golden one in everybody eyes. You know ever though I'm they sister they don't ever care about me or notice that I'm right there by they side. How can I feel like a complete stranger in my own world? I'm a person that would always worry about how life is and why does it have to be the way that it is. My parents never wanted me to do things that would make me happy. But they would rather me make other people happy.
I my life it always have some kind of hardship that I have to face. The things i don't understand is tat my mom would think about my sisters and brothers and not me. It's hard to grow up in a part of something that you didn't want to be apart of. I as a young girl understand that some matters you just have to leave to the adults. But then again adults have to try to understand the mind of a young person. You know growing up I didn't really have somebody to talk to but at the time I grew closer to GOD because rather than finding a friend I turned to GOD. I'm 16 years of age and I want to experience the world to the fullest.
I'm not a popular person in my school but different in my own way from everybody else. " TRUST!!!!!" People say that the biggest goal in a relationship is to earn your companion Trust..... but what they don't seem to understand is that even though you trust that person that person may not trust you. It's been say over and over again that LOVE could take you places that you have never dream of being but that just goes to show that life is not a "bed of roses." but rather a chance to experience a world full of GOD given magic:)
