hi my name is jess, i decided to make this bc I'm tired of bottling my feelings. I'm 19 years old and i live in a small town where people like me tend to go unnoticed by anyone. I've been through a lot for an 19 year old. I've lost way to many people and barely have any friends. sometimes i think i might be alone forever just waiting and waiting for when the friends i do have decide they are gunna leave me too. i honestly think I'm a good person but people and family make me feel like a shitty person.
im a weird person in general. i have problems just like everyone else in the world. i have my attitude problems, i have my clinginess when I'm in a relationship,etc.
i have horrible attitude problems sometimes because I've gotten to the point to where i really don't give a shit about what people think about me. only time i care is when it comes to someone i care about because I'm scared they are gunna leave me just like everyone else has .
ive had way too many bad experiences with relationships. I've been cheated on several times, lied too, and broke up with for no apparent reason.
there was this one relationship i was in... he was amazing when we first met and started dating...... then i moved in with him , that's when it all went downhill. he treated me like shit. he acted as if i was a child. he would always tell me to loose my attitude, he would tell me that i ate too much, he would tell me when he was at work i wasn't allowed to leave our room .then when we moved back to my home state we stayed with some of his friends, and after a while he left me for our roommate at the time.
if you want to hear more about my shitty life leave a comment and vote....or not its not like it matters
