A swipe of love

part 29

{uh so um i've been very busy and nervous these days cuz like my teachers are literally crazy and i don't even have time to learn all the subjects so you can say i don't have time for writing this. OFC, a good thing, i won't stop writing!! i'll probably be inactive but i'll try my best to do all. it's like 1:07 am rn and i'm supposed to sleep but who cares}

[THE NEXT DAY]
jackson: good morning shawty
you: hm? ah morning
jackson: how did u sleep
you: good i guess
jackson: (kisses ur forhead) is ur arm okay? and everything u hurt?
you: yeah, it doesn't hurt as much as yesterday
jackson: is it good
you: it is
jackson: okay come on now (throws his t-shirt on u) wear it
you: but i can wear my —
jackson: nah we both know mines are more comfty
you: hm not a lie
jackson: (helps u to wear it) good girl (took off his t-shirt and touches his hair yk)
you: pretty boyyy
jackson: ur my pretty girl (jumps on a bes next to u)
you: i can't play w ur hair, my right hand is busy i think
jackson: what about left one?
you: that one tooo... buuttt okayy okay her u get it
jackson: mmm daamnnn
you: why do u love it so much
jackson: it reminds me of you
you: wtf
jackson: when u did it for the first time, that was... the best feeling i've ever felt
you: oo so yk what was the best feeling i've ever felt?
jackson: feeling myself inside of you?
you: FUCK
jackson: I WAS KIDDING
you: I KNOW, U BETTER BE
jackson: HAHAHAH
you: i hate you
jackson: nah u know you love me
you: yeah i do, but it's not stopping me from hating on u
jackson: how can you love and hate someone in the same time?
you: well, it's not the same for everyone
jackson: explaination
you: so like, we both know i love you, but also sometimes i hate u yk? but i've never stopped loving u so basically i don't hate you i just hate something u've said because if i hated u i wouldn't be loving u, well since i love you i love u and hating is totally normal, but i couldn't be able to hate and love someone else
jackson: okay i'm so confused
you: thats simple
jackson: just like physics, very simple
you: i hate physics stop-
jackson: don't say u hate it bit love it in the same time
you: nope i've never liked physics
jackson: GOOD
you: IT'S NOT GOOD
jackson: what is not good?
you: i'm hungry
jackson: let's go and eat
you: but i am too lazy
jackson: you know what? u aren't lazy, u aren't loving and hating on me you are probably just on your period. i said what i said
you: ooh that's a good idea let's go and check
(u go to bathroom. while ur in there jackson made a bed and dressed up. thats when u came back)

jackson: i was right?
you: (sigh) as always
jackson: ofc i sae these mood swings
you: shut up
jackson: ofc u have them every day but this is a different level
you: HAHAHAHHA
jackson: so can we go now?
you: idk idk
jackson: so who knows?
you: maybe you
jackson: (picks you up) okay, i know
(u both go downstairs)
cyp: good morning
jacob: gm love birds
you both: morning homies
jacob: is ur arm okay bsf?
you: mhm i think it is
cyp: what about knee and the other hand
you: okay it's okay
jackson: she's in a mood just don't talk and don't ask her anything
jacob: i understand
cyp: damn
you: could yall let me go somewhere
jacob: why would WE let you go somewhere
you: stoopid i mean do u want to go with me somewhere
jackson: where do u want to go
you: beach?
jackson: um you know you can't wash
you: i know
cyp: what about a picnic?
you: omg what a great idea
jacob: so picnic today?
you: YEAH
jackson: cyp, wheres your wifey
cyp: oh she went yesterday evening to visit her family in NYC, so she'll come back next week
you: omg why didnt you tell me?!
cyo: woah woah why u screaming
you: because i'll miss her and she is pregnant and needs her boyfriend by her side!!?
cyp: yooo chill she ain't alone, she's visiting her family, remember?
you: but when she's travelling? and driving?
cyp: nothings gonna happen to her chill sis
you: okay. okay i'll chill. because i cafre more than ur supposed to care for YOUR girlfriend. okay. ur souless
jackson: no you're just speechless probably after saying this paragraph😭
jacob: she's just over reacting it's normal
jackson: yeah since it's this time of month
you: so when are we going? i'll just ignore yall stoopida$$
cyp: right after eating

[when u finished eating, in jacksons room]
you: um jackson
jackson: yesh
you: i don't really want to go
jackson: u sure? i literally wanted like a few minutes ago
you: um.. i changed my mind (go to lay on his bad and put a pillow on ur stomach)
jackson: (comes and sits next to you) are you okay?
you: yeah
jackson: no you are not i can see it
you: just having really bad cramps
jackson: ohhh... so that shit
you: yes i wish i was boy
jackson: okay we will stay here then

(someone knocking on the door then entering the room)
jackson: cyp?
cyp: are you going
jackson: nope, we aren't
cyp: what
jackson: (shows at you and weakly smiles)
cyp: o i understand she's depression now
you: fuck you (move pillow closer to you and hug it harder)
kackson: shhh i'm here (puts ur head on his knees so u cuddle ur head into his chest)
cyp: imma just leave (leaves)
(u cuddle ur head onto his chest while he's hugging you.)
jackson: do u need something?
you: idk
jackson: ah wait here (leaves)

[after like 5 mins, he's coming back with some snacks and a bottle of warm water]
jackson: shh here (gives you a bottle)
you: mhh thank you
jackson: look what have i brought for you!!
you: aw thank you so much but i really can't eat
jackson: i just feel like ur really not feeling good
you: just cramps, really bad cramps
jackson: it's not just it, you know you can tell me everything
you: the problem is i don't even know what, i just feel something bad, just don't know what
jackson: you are REALLY complicated when ur moody
you: idk i just feel like... idk
jackson: feel like what? tell me, talk with me
you: so idk i feel like something bad is going to happen and i feel like i'm so annoying you and the boys i should just leave yall alone it's crazy that i'm the only girl here since soph ain't here and um
jackson: babe? am i not giving you attention? i- i am so sorry i just— (hugs you)
you: (start crying and hug him back) no, no really it's not it i just don't know i feel something but idk what
jackson: (still hugging you) that's my fault and you can't say anything
you: bro you've been occuped w me these days, it's not—
jackson: no you deserve more attention but like you know me, i'm that type of person but i promise i'll give u what u deserve and i am so sorry for that. now don't even say it's not me and (wapes ur tears) stop crying (keeps waping) peincesses don't cry
you: (hug him) god. what did i do to deserve you
jackson: a lot of things
you: like what
jackson: idk
you: um
jackson: honestly, idk, maybe the way... yeah sure, the way you look at me. i feel so in love when i look in your eyes
you: aw really?
jackson: mhm
you: i love u
jackson: i know, i do the same, ily