𝕻𝖚𝖙 𝖒𝖊 𝖎𝖓 𝖆 𝖒𝖔𝖛𝖎𝖊 ; 𝖒𝖚𝖑𝖙𝖎

Meaning of meaning

DAKOTA$

I hadn't listened , I hadn't realized that I was hurt. It sat in front of me like the boy with the light blonde hair and the pale neck in figurative language class and the white board with a huge welcome sign on the front written in silly font.

something I saw everyday over and over and never realized. Cause it felt like nothing , almost empty like a blank like a piece of loose leaf paper when you open a composition notebook for the first time;Most things have something that goes right along with it. Like if you don't have one ,you don't have the other ; meaning you have nothing at all until you bring them together , the way stories have a purpose or a meaning whether boring or exciting they have something at the end that was anticipated or well awaited for.

But the same ways those things happen
so do other things , like the way your favorite book ends terrible but it's your favorite because it speaks to you or even just because you like it so much it's so hard to hate just because of one little tiny thing or a few tiny things that made you mad or even sad. Just like in our lives when we love something so much it can hurt us so bad and we'll always go back.

For some people it's family , others it's a boyfriend or a girlfriend, for you or me it might be a friend or even someone you barely know. "Cause a life with no hurt is a life not lived"- said somebody I don't know and can't remember.

Hurt is something I feel on occasion when I don't have anything to keep me occupied so now I have all the time to think about how my life really actually is shit. Hurt is not always something you can see, of course there's always people who are in tune with there emotions and know how to show it through crying and others you can see by their appearance or just their actions.

But the truly hurt live in a fantasy world.

"Here just use my folder "baby girl said as she handed me the bright yellow folder I used it to try and move the power in a thin line "uh uh a little more it'll be fun girly " she says snatching the folder and making the line a little thicker. I sniffle and take a deep breath before snorting the substance. I shake my hands out and lean against the counter.

Baby girl starts to laugh and pours a drink "open up buttercup" she says smiling at me I open my mouth and let her pour it down my throat, I harshly swallow and cough a little. "God this stuff is disgusting " I say clearing my throat. " oh hush ya little crybaby you'll be all right " baby girl says dragging me to the couch to sit down.

We sit down and she snuggles up to my arm "so what do you wanna do " she says smiling at me. She looks crazy , her eyes are blood shot and she can barely keep them open. "I don't know " I say slurring my words while dazing in and out of consciousness. Baby girl lays a finger on my lip and smiles, I snatch away and shake my head "no". "Come on please your my bestfriend right ?" Baby girl says slurring her words.

I shake my head and close my eyes, I can hardly move now. " see I know you wanna " baby girl says stretching me out on the couch and sliding her hands up my shirt. I reach to try and stop her and she just flings my arm away. I can't move so I lay limp.

"Your the bestest best friend in the world " baby girl whispers in my ear as she kisses my cheek "no problem" I say falling off into sleep or high or whatever the hell this feeling is.

POV CHANGE

"Get the hell up "  I hear from the outside of my door. "I'm up " I scream snatching the covers off my self and shifting my feet to the floor. The head swings open and my dad stares at me "are you serious right now " he says with a blank stare.

"It won't take me long to get dressed , look my clothes are already out" I say grabbing some clothes from my hamper and beginning to put them on. "Clothes ? You mean your crunchy ass laundry from 2 weeks ago?" He says with a disgusted face. "Pop" I say staring at him with a blank face , "I ain't never gone get no grandchildren am I lord ?" He says walking out the room looking to the sky.

I take a smell of the clothes and throw them to the side "damn" I say scrunching up my nose and grabbing my phone and calling violet . "Hello my love " baby girl says as I smile at her. "Hello misses thang , you coming to school today or you too busy getting High with Dakota ?" I say giving her a motherly look. "School ?" She questions "yeah the thing that you go to to learn it kinda looks like a big box and it has people in it and these things called teachers and students " I say rolling my eyes .

"I'm good sounds like shit you have fun tho " she says smiling before blowing me a kiss and hanging up.

"Ty bring your ass on "

"Dammit!"

hello everyone 😉 im making a new book but i think I'm going to step out of my comfort zone and Yk write about a bunch of diffrent things like myself and Yk if you recognize some other things from diffrent movies it's cause I'm kinda sampling things and making it my own

but I'm excited cause I'm doing like a multi kinda book and this is going to be fun

love you all 💜

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