"After the things I lived, I didn't want to fall in love again. But you made me believe in what I thought got lost in this dark and cold world." - Taehyung.
Continuation of "Calling Paradise."
Started: October 01, 2020.
Completed: September 11, 2021...
I slept peacefully until, at one point, I stopped feeling the person next to me. As soon as my partner's touch vanished, I felt the urge to stand up and look around the room. However, it took me time to open my eyes. Let the puffiness of them let me see through the dim room. Eventually, I sat on the edge of the bed to glance at every corner, hoping to find Taehyung there.
-Tae? – I sleepily asked, but since I didn't hear any response, I stood up and began to look around the room. Already feeling dizzy, I continued to search for Taehyung until reaching the entrance.
For some reason, I thought Taehyung left the room. It made me go to open the entrance's door, and then I stood there, looking to the sides of the hallway to see if he was around. There's when suddenly, I saw this man standing there. He's around my age, he has a dark blue hoodie on, blue jeans, and he's a brunette. I stared at him for a couple of seconds, analyzing his figure while noticing his attention on my room and myself. I frowned since I didn't recognize this person at all, and as the curiosity began to win over me, I decided to approach him. But before I could move any further, the room's door got opened, causing me to look behind my back.
-Taehyung? – I said while looking at him, slightly surprised.
-Jungkook, what are you doing here? Where were you going? – Taehyung asked, confused.
-I was about to talk with that guy. – I said before pointing at the man walking away through the hallway. -He was staring at our room, so I wanted to know why. – I explained as Taehyung shook his head, briefly grabbing my hand and pulling me inside the room.
Shortly, Taehyung closed the door and looked at me while holding my shoulders.
-Jungkook, you can't talk to strangers that way. And if that guy was looking to our room, you should've stayed inside, not attempt to approach him. Understood? – Taehyung scolded me, which I nodded for in response, not having something else to say at his statement.
Suddenly, Taehyung held me close to him, embracing me as I could feel his warmth. I hugged him back before feeling a kiss on my head, causing me to look up to meet Taehyung's eyes.
-It's late, but you have to take a shower. You drank too much, and I don't want you to have a hangover. – Taehyung told me.
-Alright. – I replied, but before Taehyung could go, I held his hand and looked at him with guilt written all over my face. This time, I messed things up badly, and I believe I have to make up for it.
-What is it? – Taehyung asked while looking at me.
-I want to apologize for what happened between us. I shouldn't have told you the words I did and made you feel upset about things that happened in the past. – I sincerely said, feeling my eyes getting teary again.
-Ah, Jungkook. – Taehyung sighed before caressing my cheek with his thumb. -Honestly, I forgive you for everything, but I only want to know why you kept so many things away from me. I already know how much you suffered on your own; you never sought someone's help or time to be there with you, and I can't understand why. – Taehyung disclosed while looking at me, concerned.
I looked away for a second before returning my attention to Taehyung. -Honestly, after everything that happened with Jodie and my break up with Yoongi, I felt everyone was very eager. Therefore, I believed the best thing to do was to leave my emotions aside. I only wanted to avoid another burden. – I revealed while noticing Taehyung's concern on the look he's giving me.
-I won't say anything else to you, okay? I don't want to pressure you due to the things that happened in the past. – Taehyung spoke before patting my head. -Take a shower; I'll wait for you in the bed. – Taehyung told me, which I nodded for in response. Shortly, I walked away from him and took my stuff to shower and change, and briefly, I glanced back at Taehyung. He laid back on the bed before turning on the light from the bedside table, and then he took his book and began to read. I released a subtle smile before sighing.
-I'm honestly sorry; you deserve so much better. – I murmured before walking away to the bathroom.
*Minutes later*
I finished showering and getting ready to sleep. Right now, I'm placing my towel outside to dry while watching the city from the balcony. I admired the lights, causing my smile to show slightly more, but then my previous thoughts lingered inside my head. My joy suddenly fell short, and my demons began to mess up my mood again. Eventually, I got inside the room, closed the balcony door, and walked towards the bed. I finally met the mattress, and while lying down on it, I felt some comfort at last. Yet, the mysterious man that appeared outside the room made me feel confused. After all, I haven't seen that guy before, and I don't understand why he was there.
I shook my head, trying to let my mind rest at last. But suddenly, I felt Taehyung's arms around me, immediately making my head turn to look at him. I admired his figure for seconds before looking away from him, still feeling upset because I made our argument worse.
-I heard you, and I believe you are mistaken. You are the best thing that could happen to me. – Taehyung sleepily said, causing me to glance at him, stunned.
-You didn't have to hear any of it but thank you for saying that. – I merely said before Taehyung opened his eyes to meet mine.
-You said I deserve better, but what's more surpassing than you? Nobody else, Jungkook. And forget what happened, alright? I love you, and that won't change. – Taehyung sincerely spoke before caressing my hair.
-But I don't deserve you—
I spoke, but Taehyung immediately interrupted me. -No, stop saying those words. How can you be so cruel to yourself? Huh? It is okay, Jungkook. Listen, I understand your distress and the reason behind your actions; you suffered a lot without anyone knowing about it. So, stop pretending like you don't deserve anything. – Taehyung sternly said, immediately making me feel upset. But I only nodded at his words, not knowing what else to answer.
I thought I had my emotions controlled, but I guess it wasn't the way I believed.
After hearing my thoughts, I sighed, briefly feeling Taehyung's embrace. I closed my eyes and let him stay close to me, this time letting my tears fall without worrying anymore.
If I have to cry, I'll do it. I don't care anymore; I can't stay strong in every situation, and that's okay. I'm only human.
-There you go; let it all out, and never hold back when you are with me. – Taehyung sweetly spoke, which I hummed for in response, briefly holding tighter onto him.
-Never leave me, please. – I stuttered, making Taehyung scoff slightly.
-What you are asking doesn't make sense, but alright, I promise I'll never leave you. – Taehyung whispered near my ear before kissing my head.
