"I really don't like the concept of living" I think to myself as I lay down staring blankly trying to sleep on a long but same 24 hour Wednesday night.
"I really can't stop thinking" I think to myself, as I moan lightly and tilt my head back slowly in annoyance that I can't stop thinking and go to sleep.
"Morgan!" Calls my Nana
"Yes?" I say quietly, realizing that she wouldn't heard me say yes.
There was no answer
I get up & I open my bedroom door & I walk upstairs to my nana and I look at her with slight confusion why she was calling my name & didn't respond but she tends to do that a lot..
A few seconds after I walked into her room she said "your mom called"
There was silence for a few seconds
I look down "oh" not knowing what to say
"You should call her back probably?" My nana said softly
I look at her with mercy, "I guess so.. "
I walk away
"Morgan" my nana says softly
I stopped, but I didn't turn towards her.
"Call her" she said in a simple, but an advice giving way..
I walk down the stairs.
I sit up on my bed
"Oh Morgan" I think to myself
Glances at my phone
"Call her" my nana's voice repeating in my head like a soft long echo.
I grab my phone And I call my mom
*phone rings*
"Hello?" My mom says
"Hi mom, you called?" I respond quietly and interested in what she says
"Yes I did, How are you doing Morgan?" My mom says
"I'm doing just fine, and you?" I respond softly
"I'm good" my mom says quietly and busy
"Do you want to come visit me?" My mom says surprisingly out of the blue
I didn't reply for a few seconds
I answer softly "su-sure" "but when" & how long? "This is kinda out of no where.. You haven't called me for two weeks?" I say disappointed and surprised.
"I know, and I'm sorry Morgan, I'm just busy" she says
"Too busy to call your daughter" I think to myself wanting to hangup at this moment
" i guess it's okay" i respond back
"I'm sorry" said my mom
"Okay when and how long will I visit you for?" I ask
" a few months" she replies fastly
" a few months??" I replied surprised a bit more fast then usual
"Yes, you'll start school here.. Maybe you'll like it?"
".. Have you talked to nana about this??" I respond still surprised
"Yes I did, I'll be picking you up on next Friday goodnight Morgan I love you see you soon"
" goodbye mom " I hangup and put my phone down
"Just like that" I say
As I'm sitting up on my bed I lay back and think, and think, and think about my mom and the fact she asked for me to live with her .. " Morgan, you'll be alright" I think to myself..
I grab the blanket on top of me and cuddle myself to the pillow and stare at the wall " you'll be alright" I think again to myself.
