Still in my bed,
Watching the ceilling
Eyes fixed
Heart lost
And with you it resides.
I woke up tired and fevered,
Then I see your notification
I blush unsure of the reason.
Was it love ? Was it the fever ?
I go on and daydream,
I play a song and get into its theme
It was so ... romantic.
Then I read my book
To get lost from you,
But then I find you in between the lines too.
Wherever I go
Your shadow is there.
Is it good ? Is it bad ?
Would I ever get tired of it ?
I wonder.
And I think not.
But then you keep reminding me
Of what you did to me once upon a time
... no, twice upon the times
It aches me, it consumes me..
And wakes up the flame
That's burning inside of me.
Is it the fever ? Or how I really feel?
I wanna be honest with you
And for that,
I have a lot to tell you.
I thought and thought
During all the past days,
And you were the main character of my thoughts.
I thought of this,
I thought of us,
And how it is going.
We said we'd give each others time,
And from commitment we escaped..
At least for the time being.
But m afraid m starting to feel committed,
To you and the way you make me feel.
Is it wrong ? I wonder...
And I think it is.
I go on in my life,
And the fear hunts me;
What if the feelings vanish one day.
It happened to both of us in our past lives,
And I am afraid it will happen again.
Don't get me wrong
I am not unsure of my feelings,
Only God knows how much I love you.
But we both know how love isn't enough
To make rivers find their way back to the ocean.
What I am unsure of is you,
Your light, your flames
They shine brighter than the sun.
Beautiful to see, amusing to watch
But without a warning, fire can set up.
You see,
The last times I approached
I got burnt
And the scars still hunt me...
For that, distance is needed.
Look at me making physics in here
Mentioning time and space.
We've always been mesmerized by its laws,
And here we are making our own.
Giving one another time to heal,
Time to get over past galaxies.
Space to build oneself,
Without being interfered by one another.
Whoever is ready by then can wait.
Will you be the one waiting for me ?
Or would I?
Would we collide with other galaxies by then?
Who knows ?
If we were really meant to be,
We'd find our way back
Just like the way rivers do.
....
I read once
That water signs are faithful
And so let us be it.
W<3
