Confused Hearts

Confused Hearts : Chapter Two

CHAPTER TWO

It's already a quarter after eight. I don't feel the same. I felt an ache in my stomach. I know I am already hungry. I tried to stand, I saw my phone -- the wallpaper is our, our picture together. I felt a tear on my face. Should I delete this? No.  Not yet. I guess I'm not yet ready to move on.

I went downstairs and sa my mom, baking cookies. I know, she'll be giving those to her loved ones.

"Goodmorning sweetheart. I'm baking cookies, wanna grab one and share it to your friends?" She asked with a big smile on her face. She seems to be happy.

"Morning too. Nope. I don't wanna share it to anyone else. Just go, and bake."

She did not answer this time, she just continued what she was doing. It's Sunday today, I am dutied to help Aunt Jane in her Flower Shop. So, guess that I'll be spending my Valentines at her shop.

I fixed myself -- I tried to act normal as if I ain't broken after all. I ride at my bicycle and drive away. As I pass through streets, I see lovers. They all seemed to be happy with each other. I felt, jealous. I remembered Julian, my ex now. I remember the way he walks with me everyday after school. He's always holding my hand, and hugging me before letting me go. Augh. I lost my focus, that I didn't even noticed that I already passed by Aunt's flower shop. What do I do? Ofcourse, go back.

"Goodmorning Tacia! Way cool seeing you here. Bet you have your date with Julian today, you can go now if you want." My Aunt Jane smiled. She knows about Julian, my family knows about him. It's a fact that I don't wanna lie to them.

"Date? No. Uhhmmm, sorry, I don't wanna talk about it. So, wanna start helping you today?"

"Oh, yeah. It's just past ten in the morning but, orders kept on going!"

"Good thing. For sure, dollars will rain here today. Joking."

"Haha! Pretty cool darling."

I started fixing flowers -- roses, daisies, orchids, freesias, scarlet carnations and many more. Well, thanks to those flowers, because of their colors I forgot the pain.

I left the shop at three. It's because Aunt wanted me to enjoy my Valentines. Enjoy what? This freakin' Valentines Day? With whom? None. There's no sense of being happy today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and so on.

I went home and saw mom and dad preparing theirselves. They're leaving, ofcourse, for a date. So jealous, they bid goodbye. So, my sister Anikka and I were left alone in the house. She just got home too, from a date with her friends. Where are my friends? They're gone. Ever since our family moved from Sunburst,MT to ATL, I never had true friends at school. Unlike Lara, my bestfriend in Montana, people here are somewhat, plastic. I met Veronica last year, she sat next to me then we became bestfriends. She loved Julian, I also did. Honestly, Veronica and Julian became lovers. But, Veronica played with Julian's heart that's why they brokeup.  She went away from me when she knew about what's happening between me and Julian. Is she jealous or what? She's selfish. Because of her, I never opened my heart again to other people to be my friend.

Past eight, mom and dad arrived -- both happy from their date, ofcourse. The whole family ate together. For again, I forgot the pain of being broken.

"How's your Valentines, Anastacia? You did not go out for a date today, didn't you?" Mom asked me.

They let me remember the pain again. I don't want to ruin the night with them. So, I speak up with full of courage.

"We broo...broke up, yesterday. That's the real thing. I don't wanna talk about it. Sorry. Excuse me."

I walked away from the dining table. They did not move. They understand the feeling. That's why I love my family so much, they're understanding.

Inside my room, I tried to call Lara.

"Hello! Lara speaaaaaking! HAHA.  Miss ya, dear. Why did you call?"'

With her words, I cried. I miss her so much. She's a true friend. I wanna go back to Montana.

"Aw, bestie. Miss ya too. Happy Valentines!" I greeted her and tried to pretend that I'm not crying.

"Happy Valentines too! Hweee. How's you and Julian? Ahiii."

I knew it. She'll definitely ask that question. I know her much.

"Julian broke up with me last night." I said with a very low sad voice.

"Really?! Oh. Sorry. I should not have asked that to you. Uhhmm, rest now dear. You need a rest. Goodnight."

She put the phone down. She knows that I am already crying.I'm missing her. She's the most adorable person I've ever know. She didn't comforted me because she'll cry too. I need her now, I wanna hug my bestie.

I opened the drawer to keep my phone in to avoid calls. I saw Julian's picture with me. I felt weak, seeing those memories. I grabbed them and assembled them inside an envelope. I kept it under my bed. I never wanna see it now.  I wanna try to live my life without him. That seems to be impossible, but I don't have any other choice.

I laid down on my bed. Tried to sing our song in my head. I'm missing his voice. I'm waiting for him to call me. With much disappointment, I fell asleep.