Journey To My Heart

98 - Tenggelam - Drowned

Ku remuk... Ku menangis... Ku tenggelam...

Begitu banyak suara

Begitu banyak perasaan

Terhunjam padaku...  kuburkanku hidup hidup...

Buatku terluka... buatku tergores...

Tinggalkan bekas menganga

Begitu perih... begitu lara...

Ingin kukuak namun tak cukup hasrat...

Tak terkumpul tenaga... tak terhimpun asa...

Kurasa sangat kecil

Semakin kecil dan kecil... dan kecil tiada batas

Ingin kumenghilang namun tiada mungkin

Ingin kumembesar dan memakan semuanya tapi tak dapat

Kuhanya bisa bertahan dan berteduh pada sebatang doa

Doa yang tak terucap....

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I crushed... I cried.... I drowned...

So many voices

So many feelings

stabbed on me... buried me alive...

Hurt me... scratch me..

leaving a gaping wound

Stings... Aching...

I want to expose it but can't gathered enough desire...

Can't gathered enough strength... can't gathered enough will...

I feel so small

Smaller and smaller... and smaller

I want to vanish, but i can't

I want to swell and eat everything but I'm unable to

I can just hold on and take shelter to a stick of pray

an unspoken pray...

Aulia S.

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