IN A NUTSHELL

In a nutshell is a collection of personal short stories that I have put together over the span of the past three years. Encounters, friendships, relationships, experiences, thoughts etc. Each short chapter/ story has an x. I have decided to use the letter x instead of using actual names to be able to talk about anything and share anything. I hope you find some of these chapters relatable and enjoy reading them. Most of the chapters are NOT in chronological order, I felt as though its best to do so as per the fact that many chapters are not related to each other and aren't required to fall right after each other. This story's cover was initially created by Katie Oh. 

A huge thank you to everyone who had helped me complete this book

The Beauty of My Christmas – End of a journey

It's almost Christmas and I can't find any words to write.

The words are scattered all over the place.

I happen to be resting in front of my Christmas tree with the lights off

Leaving the tree's lights all alone to dazzle me with its beauty.

Just like you, settling in my mind all alone with no one else to distract me from your beauty.

And yet I can't help but wonder...

Am I as dazzling to you?

Are you out there thinking about me by your Christmas tree?

I just can't quite help but question if I am as special to you.

Sometimes I wish you would just be a little more confrontational

Go blunt, reject me.

I'll ultimately mend the emptiness you've left behind after however long.

In other words, I prefer moving on.

Rather than pretending to listen to your music.

Rather than praising you for the bare minimum.

Rather than getting drawn into those ocean eyes.

Rather than excluding all others for you and to be with you.

If I could miraculously go back in time and refrain from initiating that conversation... I would!

As much as I love having you around,

I would rather go back to the peace I acquired before embarking upon your beauty: inside-out.

As much as I love hearing your voice in all of its eloquence and your intricate choice of words,

I wish I had gone deaf that night.

I think it is time for me to go back to being the stranger I once was to you.

It's so much more peaceful without you around.

However, thank you.

Thank you for inspiring me to become better.