Hormones

I want to go back

Y/n got home from the hospital after seeing Yoongi. "How is he?" Her mom asked sitting in the living room watching the movie bridesmaids. "He's awake." Y/n said. Sungmin peeked his eyes over the book he was reading while laying on the couch, eves dropping on their conversation.

"Oh that good. I was worried about him." Her mom admitted before going back to paying attention to the show.

Y/n walked to her room, leaving the door cracked. She sat in the dark, the only light coming from the hallway outside her room. She took out her new Enjoy she had gotten not to long ago after her vuse stopped working.

She sat on her phone reading something about a new fashion trend.

She blew out some smoke and heard shuffling from behind her door. She looked up and saw eyes peeking into her room. The eyes went wide and then they where gone, and she heard footsteps running down the hall and into the living room. 'Shit' y/n thought, standing up and running after whoever saw her.

She made her way into the living room, seeing Sana standing by her mom and her mom with a serious look on her face. Sungmin had out down his book to watch this play out.

"Y/n M/n." Her mother said, in a scary tone. Y/n froze and took a deep breath. "Again? Really?"

Sungmin almost laughed at the 'again' part. Hyungjin walked in and felt the tension in the room. He put a chip in his mouth from the Doritos bag in his hands before asking "what happened?"

Sungmin motion him to sit down next to him and he did so. Sungmin whispered what was happening in his ear. "Ooooh! So what?"

Her mother snapped her head towards him. "What do you mean so what?"

Hyunjin shrugged. "I mean shes 17. Almost an adult. I don't think you can really have much of a day anymore. Even if you don't allow her too doesn't mean she won't do it anyway." Her mother starred him down before looking back up to y/n. "Go to your room and give me the device."

Y/n took the enjoy out of her pocket and placed it in her mother hand. Her mom stacked it away and pointing towards the hallway y/n's room was in.

Y/n dragged her feet back to her room, sitting down at her desk. A piece of paper sat beside her. Homework from school that day she wanted to beg her teacher not to grade it. Y/n hadn't been doing well in school lately as she had been distracted by Yoongi and other things going on. She had recently found out about Namjoon through a girl in her chemistry class. She had tried to call him to see if he would answer but he didn't.

Namjoon had blocked everyone he knew from school, family, friends, everyone.

Later that night y/n heard a light knock on her door. Her mother walked in with her vape in hand.

"Y/n. You know I don't like this kind of thing but, I now realize I can't really help it anymore. It is your decision and I just don't want you to do something that could hurt you." She said sitting down in her bed beside her. Her mother set the vape in her hand and stared at her carefully. "I want you think carefully about what your doing y/n. Make life easier not harder."

After her little speech her mother left and y/n, ironically, rolled her eyes and took a hit.

Jian was in a bit of a dilemma.

She sat in Bangchans room on his bed next to him. "So what are you gonna do after high school?" BangChan asked and leaned back on the headboard.

Jian thought for a moment. "I think I'm gonna go back to the US and go to collage for something. Not sure yet." She said and BangChan frowned. "Back to the US?" Jian nodded.

"Why? Why not stay here?"

Jian shrugged. "Just don't want to. All my friends are there. Wanna catch up with them."

BangChan sat up and put his hands in his lap. "You can do that in a vacation trip. And I'm here. Don't you want to stay with me?"

Jian now frowned and raised and eyebrow. "You wouldn't want to go with me?"

BangChan shook his head grimly. "The only reason you want to go back is to see your friends. No other reason. I want to stay because I have a plan and a future here. You can do things you want to in the future here and in the US. I'm not going back." He stated putting his imaginary foot down. Jian shook her head. "No. I'm not staying." Jian snapped back raising her voice slightly. BangChan furrowed his eyebrows and turned his head. "Fine then. Whatever."

"What do you mean whatever?"

BangChan looked at her again. "You don't want to stay here with me. It's fine. Whatever." Jian didn't know what to say. "Well you don't want to go with me!"

"Your not going for a good reason. Your not going for a future in that country. I'm staying because I do!"

Jain stood up and crossed her arms. "I'm going because I have people there! I'm going because that's where i want to be and nothing not even you can change that! I grew up there!"

BangChan now stood up mocking her. "I grew up in Australia and I don't want to go back there!" He pointed out. Now Jian was just done with him. She walked out of his room not saying anything more. She passed his mother on the way out. Her mother almost asked where she was going as she said she would stay for dinner but Jian had already walked out of their apartment.

She stormed out of the building and into the snowy weather outside. Korea had just gotten a lot of snow that January making it freezing. That night Jian regrets not remembering her coat on her way out of BangChans apartment.

When she got home her long sleeve blouse was covered in snow and her jeans wet from it melting. Her hair had white flakes in it and her cheeks red from the cold. Her dad was working late so he wasn't home when she got there. She quickly changed her clothes into a hoodie she had gotten from her orthodontist back when she was 13, still fits, and some sweat pants from pink, along with some fuzzy Christmas socks her mom had gotten her the Christmas before.

She got in bed under her grey comforter, having it all the way up to her ears. She hated sleeping with her ears showing. She cringed just think about what her father had told her when she was 8 about spiders crawling in her ears and tickling her brain in her sleep.

She knew she had to make the decision. BangChan was pretty hard headed so no matter what he was staying in Korea. She thought about y/n and Yuuri, wondering how they where doing.

About an hour later her father got home. He came into her room to check on her. He saw her laying down in bed breathing slowly. He almost left, think she was asleep when she said "dad?"

He walked closer to her bed and sat down next to her body. He brushed some hair out of her face. "I need your opinion. When I graduate, I want to go back to the US but, BangChan wants me to stay. I want to go back because of my friends but I don't want to leave him."

Her dad sighed. "How about he goes with you?" Jian shook her head and closed her eyes. "He doesn't want too."

"Well in that case I'd prolly stay here. Friends grow apart over time, to me it seems you already have. You havnt talked to them in months and you don't know how much they've changed." Her father said sounding wise. Jian nodded her head and opened her eyes again. "I'll think about it."