Mind Set

Chapter 30

Little Fights

As they hit parenthood. Both Aga and Lea doesn't need an alarm clock anymore because they have their own, who's breathing and living and which is personally made by them. Their alarm clock make sounds even though they didn't set it to wake them up at that specific time.

It was late in the night when Brene decided that she wants to suck sweet milk to fill up her teensy-winnie empty intestines. She started whimpering while breathing heavily, her face turned into a frown then her crying played over along the 4 sided room which woke both her parents. Lea was too tired and so is Aga, but being both hands on. They stood up lazily and went beside Brene's crib to feed her.

They looked at their little princess who's still crying loudly and moving her clothed hands and feet around, Lea carefully carried her and swayed her around, making Brene cry less. She easily recognizes her mothers warmth and something is serene in it that can effortlessly hush her down.

"Aga, Ahhhh (yawn) may gatas pa si Brene doon, pede ba babalik na ako sa kama? Antok na antok pa talaga ako." Lea asked still swaying her arms with eyes closed. They bought breast milk pumper to store milk for Brene so they can feed her wherever and whenever because its already in a bottle. Just make sure that it is stored very well in a cool temperated place, the fridge, so it'll stay fresh as if it just came out of Lea's breast gland.

At first, Lea found it weird to attach those cups in her breast, but with couple of days passing by, using it for few times. She got accustomed with the feeling. But not with her being half naked while sitting on the bed, reading a book or watching the television with Aga beside her.

She's thankful enough that Aga is a very respectful man. He would cover her up with a comforter before she puts the cups on or would turn his back or close his eyes so he won't see her body. He can also leave her on the room alone but Lea chooses not to and just let him be inside. One step at a time. Although she is his wife, he still knows the word privacy and respect.

If Lea isn't comfortable with him seeing her body, then why would he force for her to show it? They're still starting to know and explore each other. What are the yes'es and no's they should do as a couple to their individual partner. And one of that is respecting each others body. He won't force his wife to do 'it' with him. Not because he's a man, doesn't mean he should do it with a woman to make him look "cool" and to make him feel more of a man. What do you call it? Ahhh! "Tawag ng laman" isn't a right excuse to do it to a woman without her consent. Even if she's your wife, if she doesn't want it, then don't force her to do it.

For you, it seems and feels like heaven. But the trauma and forever grieving your wife would live in because she lost her dignity to her own husband will not change the fact that you used her without her permission to you to do it to/with her. Plus, guilty would forever run inside you until it starts to kill you.

Your girl didn't marry you for you to use her anytime, she married you because she loves you and that it means she's ready to live her lifetime with you. And with that, it means that she's entrusting her welfare to you because you were good at her when both of you are still in a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship.

"Sure mahal, I know you're very tired. Take a rest first then we'll play with you tomorrow. Right, Brene?" Aga followed up her question with his answer. Brene raised her hands and moved it around again. Aga took it as a "yes" and prepared himself to pick Brene from Lea. Lea gave Brene to Aga and stood up to let her wholeness rest on the soft, thick mattress their bed has to offer which she couldn't oppose. She pulled the cloudy comforter up to her shoulders and closed her eyes, within a few minutes, she's in deep slumber.

Parenthood slowly hits Aga and Lea. The late night waking up to feed or take care of their crying little one is now not new to them after a month of officially being parents. Although it's really really tiring, but its their job, so no giving up or excuses. They'll do it no matter how tired and sleepy they are.