What He Loves Me? (Ziall) (short story)

What He Loves Me?

A/N well here is my new fan fic hope its better then the last...

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Zayn’s P.O.V

I slump onto Niall’s couch and open the lid of my laptop, typing in ‘Ziall Fan Fictions’ I wouldn’t admit it, but I had a thing for fan fictions. I realized that reading them at his house was a definite way to get caught, but in a way I thought that could be good, I mean, Sure It would be embarrassing, and awkward if he didn’t share my feelings. But maybe even if he didn’t he would, you know, give me something to remember him by.

I only partially understood why I liked Ziall ones. I mean, Li was my best friend and he’s great, so I assumed I would’ve fallen for him, Besides, I wasn’t even sure I liked dudes. I loved Niall, but I had always thought that was just cause of our close friendship, saying that though, lately I had almost yearned to be with him. So he could be mine, to touch, kiss, hug…fuck. His soft blonde hair, pale skin and sexy Irish accent, so different to my own dark hair and tan skin turned me on; it wasn’t just a man crush, now it was full blown love. I guess that means I do like guys...Oh well; there you go; now I’m bi.

It’s funny that it was Niall I wanted, people always say that we’re so different, and that’s why we don’t live together, but part of me loves how different we are, I guess that whole ‘opposites attract’ thing works for me. I just felt like I really loved Niall, It wasn’t just about the sex with him, and he was the only dude I loved in that way, Haz, Lou and Li were my brothers, but Niall, he just made me want more.

I soon found what I was looking for and opened a story called ‘Fun’ By ‘ILoveOneDirection27’ It had the tags Sexual Content and featured Niall and I, So I knew I’d found what I was craving.

“Hey Zaynie” I hear Niall’s chirpy greeting and push down the lid of my computer, feeling the couch sink with the weight of another person as he comes to sit beside me. I decide that despite my earlier thoughts, if he wasn’t eager to know what I was doing, he didn’t need to know. I turn to face him with an easy grin, but the look on Niall’s face unnerves me, so I collapse like jelly in an earthquake. “Erm, Hey Ni” I mumble, flushing awkwardly. Niall looks at me and raises a curious brow, his face still beaming with a cheeky smile and naughtily sparkling blue eyes, “You okay mate?” He questions, grinning.

“Hmm? Yeah fine” I shrug, smiling for his benefit even though I felt queasy.

“Cool” Niall states, his crazed expression relaxes a little, leaving me wondering what he had been thinking about “Erm, want some food or something?” He asks, standing but still facing me.

“Wait” I blurt, I reach out and wrap my fingers around his slim wrist, Niall looks at me oddly but sits down anyway. For a few minutes there’s an awkward period of semi-silence as Niall sits patiently, watching me, humming and tapping his foot. Suddenly he sighs and smiles at me, “Good fan fic?”

“What?” I can feel my cheeks burning as Niall’s expression makes it’s come back, pinning me down with a happy gaze.

“The Fan fiction, Is it good?” He presses, pointing at my half closed laptop.

As I struggle for a reply my mind races over random thoughts, I don’t even know why this is such a big thing! The expression he had makes me think it was big for him, and I wonder how he knew, I mean, Niall was useless with computers. And I always had mine with me, he could’ve checked my history while I was in the bathroom or something I guess, But he didn’t seem like he would have been all that subtle.

“Yeah” Is all I manage to say

“What’s it about?” Niall smirks, making me nervous again.

“Erm…” I start.

“It’s dirty isn’t it” Niall laughs friendlily

“No!”

Niall’s smirk widens “Let me see it then”

“No” I protest, tugging my laptop further away from him.

“See! It is!” Niall accuses, “Who’s in it?”

“Uh” I flush red again but before I can think of an answer, Niall leans over me, snatches my laptop and opens it. I watch him nervously as his eyes flick from side to side, widening as he reads. He gives me a half smile as he returns the computer, and I feel my skin starting to burn up again.

“Wow, Kinky” He states, still grinning “I ate off you”

I look back at him awkwardly, squirming under his gaze.

“So…You like those?” He asks

“No, of course not” I insist, Niall’s face falls, even though it’s obvious he’s acting and he shrugs again.

“Oh…Ok then” He sighs dramatically “I just thought…” He smirks at me, a mischievous glint in his blue eyes.

“You mean?” I look at him eagerly, forgetting my attitude from before; I couldn’t believe this was happening...we’d only just finished a tour, weeks before we were all talking about how we missed girls.

“Well, it could be fun” Niall grins excitedly “If you want to” he adds.

I nod earnestly “Mhm, I definitely want to” Niall smiles “I love you ya know” I return the smile and shuffle closer, placing my hand on his cheek and pressing a gentle kiss to his soft lips “Good, cause I love you too” I murmur. Niall smiles again and stands up, I look at him confused, he smirks at me “Can’t let your fantasies go to waste can we Zayn?” He remarks, winking before reaching for my hand. I gingerly accept, having a vague idea of what he had in mind.