Drowning in the darkness
Grasping for air and surface
Lone in the ocean, no help in sight
Crying out to a sea of silence
A cloud across the moon that is my thought
A tidal wave against my heart
In silence, all love is drowned
And all feeling is washed away
To be alone is it a curse
Or is it a chance for survival?
To be broken again and again
Against such pain, there is no repair
I sit amongst friends, laughing with joy
As they discover love and happy days
While i sit amongst them
my mind miles away beating back the sad
There is an echo that i cannot escape
To be alone is to stand alone
This is the cry that echoes in my mind
Do not burden others with your tome, your novel of feelings never opened, wrapped and sealed away liked a cursed doom.
You must be strong, as a mountain,
Do not burden others with your sorrows
I only cry out to myself, to me,
For i must be strong shoulders for others tomorrow
Who will be there to raise them from death,
Out of the ocean i struggle to keep them.
If i must drown so that others may live, i swallow the sadness as if it were life itself.
But to be saved, that is a dream
That my heart makes.
To be taken in someone's arms and know that i am enough
Know that i am deserving.
Know that i am loved.
Unconditional love.
The unobtainable dream.
And so i swallow the mud infesting my soul and put on a smile, the facade of completion and order once again in the faces of those i love. I do this for them so that i may not be a burden.
