Bucky's Redemption

Chapter 2

Bucky POV

(Mature scene in this chapter)

Five seconds. It was only five seconds for my best friend to notice something was different. Steve Rogers, of course he would notice.

"Buck, what's got you smiling like that?" Steve had commented while he sipped some of the last of the water he was drinking.

I only scoffed at him and pushed at his shoulder. "You're seeing things in your old age."

Steve lightly chuckled and put the cup back in the sink. "We are around the same age, let me remind you."

"It's nothing, really man. So what have you been up to?"

Steve only shrugged and crossed his arms across his chest. "Just hanging out, mostly. Nat should be back here in a bit. She was visiting Clints family."

I smirked and got out some water from the fridge. "So you going to finally ask her out or what?"

Steve let out a cough and shook his head. "What you talking about Buck?"

I took a swig of the water and leaned against the counter, giving Steve a look. "Look man, I can see the chemistry or whatever you call it between you two. Gross puppy love."

I knew he was right when I saw Steve actually blush slightly. That made me really happy to see happiness in Steve. Steve deserved the best and to be happy. He never pictured it would be a former assassin that he would fall in love with, but hey, sometimes you don't get a choice, love picks your partner for you.
"Don't know what you're talking about, but it seems like you're changing the subject and don't want to tell me what's going on with you."

Bucky opened his mouth to speak, but then the elevator doors opened to the fiery red head that had a hold of Steve's heart.

"Saved by the bell. Go ask her, now." I said and bumped his arm.

"Ask me what Rogers?" Natasha asked as she walked over. After she set  down her bags, she crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow with a small smirk.

I watched as my best friend stumbled over his words just like he used way back when until he finally asked Nat if she wanted to watch a movie. Natasha shrugged her shoulders and walked over to the flat screen in the living room.

"Sounds fun, but I get to pick the movie old man." Nat then sat down and waited for Steve to come join her. I gave Steve a thumbs up and headed back to the room that Tony had assigned me. There will always be tension between us. Tony doesn't talk to me unless necessary and I like it that way because everytime I look at Tony, I see when I killed his parents. Well, when the Winter Soldier killed his parents. I apologize everytime I see him, but Tony just nods and goes about finishing what he was doing. So the most I can do is just give him space and stay in my lane. That's basically what I do now. I go on my missions, go to the coffee shop, and stay in my area. Sometimes Steve tries to introduce me to some people, but it's like we don't connect. They are nice, but it isn't how it used to be.
Now Steve gets the dates, and I'm holed in my room. It's my choice, but it's where I am safe and where everyone is too.

When I try to fall asleep, I usually think of something positive, that's what my therapist says I should do. The only thing that can come to mine is seeing Alex. The way she had made jokes that I didn't get but were funny. The way her skin felt under my fingertips. I thought I could never lay a gentle hand on another woman, but there I was applying medication to her. I was healing, and not causing pain. It felt like a whole different thing that made me feel good about my place in the world.

The last thing I remember before falling asleep is when I looked down at her smile, then the way the blush she had went from her cheeks and then all the way down her neck. I wondered just how far it went...

Hours later I wake up from the floor drenched in sweat. I throw off the thin sheet that is clinging to my body and try to get my breathing under control. This wasn't a nightmare like usual, it was a fantasy one. Alex had just gotten off her shift and I had picked her up on my bike. We were going down the road when she said for me to pull over. After I did she took off her helmet and dragged me over down an empty alley. I swore something was wrong, but then Alex lifted up the skirt she was wearing and pulled down a thong.
In my dream I had stood there not knowing what to do. The only thing I could do was feel the strain in my jeans. Alex had then pulled me to her and kissed my mouth hungry, like I was the last scrap of food on Earth.
Alex then unbuttoned my jeans and unzipped me somehow with one hand. When she palmed me, it was all over. The next thing in my dream I remember is me shoving my vibranium fingers into her. I was able to make them vibrate, sending her into an explosive state. Hearing the way I thought she would scream, was the most delicious sound I had ever heard.

It had felt all real in the dream especially when I started to pound into her, making her moan my name over and over. And just when I was about to explode into her, I woke up.

Now out of dream mode, I looked down at the stain in my pants and groaned. I just met this woman and already I was fantasizing about her. What the hell was wrong with me?

I got up even though it was only three a.m. and took the coldest shower possible. Even after minutes in there, I was still at full attention. I groaned again and put my fist on the shower wall.
"Buck?"

"Yeah?" I called out.

"Need you on a mission. Wheels up in ten."

Steve's voice saying there was a mission must have gotten me out of the trance because I was back to normal. What the hell is this woman doing to me?

After I got into the quinjet, Steve stood infront of all of us. We only had Nat with the both of us so it must have been a small mission. After Steve had said that there were just some Hyrda agents after a certain rare chemical in a lab, Fury just wanted a small team. Get in and get out.

After landing, Nat and I went around the sides of the building while Steve went through the doors.

'Got nothing so far boys. After this mission, you guys want to get some breakfast?'

I slightly snorted and but kept up my stance as I looked for any disturbances around the lab.

'Can you talk about food afterwards Nat.' Steve asked slightly irrated.

'Fine. Hold up, I got two Hyrdas in my sight.'

'Wait for us Nat, you'll need back up just in case.' Steve said over his comm.

I walked around the other side to get to Nat but she was already inside. Damn her stubbornness. When I started hearing gunfire, I cursed slightly and ran into the door entryway. So much for the element of surprise. I started running towards the echoes of grunts and Steve's shield flying through the air. When I got to the both of them, they were fighting off an Agent each. The one Nat was fighting had a purple liquid In a glass vial in his hand. Carefully I was able to get behind the guy and kick at his back legs, sending the man to his knees momentarily before Nat kicked his chest. The vial flew from his hand and luckily I was able to catch it before it broke onto the floor.

"Got it, Steve let's go!" I called out.

"Right. Behind. You." Steve managed to get the upper hand and knocked the other Hyrda agent out before following Nat and I back to the jet.

Once we were back at the base, we handed the vial over to Dr. Banner for him to examine it. Our mission was complete, so Nat, Steve, and I actually went out for breakfast. As we ate, I felt like I was counting down the time till I got to see Alex again.