When I was a teenager I lived my life a certain way. You could not tell me anything different about what my life would have been. I knew exactly what I was doing—well then at least I did.
As I trouble to sit here with the bitter cold New York air attacking my lungs, I think about you, which on days like this I think about you more now than I should. I gave that right up years ago but, as of late it's the little things that bring my thoughts back to those summers we spent together.
Oh, what I would give just to catch a glimpse of you now.
Today has been a long day for me. Well, any day without you has been hard but today has been the worst on the list. Nicky came to visit me today. He said, he had flown in from Dallas over the weekend and he just wanted to check in with his favorite friend. I didn't fully believe him but, the gesture was nice.
Eventually, I had to shut him up. He just kept going on and on about you. I would have let him if it didn't hurt so bad. We had lunch at the restaurant around the corner from where you used to work when you first moved here.
Just so many memories of you.
But, I always will remember you from that first moment we spoke. There was something about you that I hadn't noticed before. Call me crazy me but, there was a spark of light in you that you held down deep. I wonder why you hid that from the world. Times weren't good to you then and I know that now.
We were so young and I try to remember why. Why everyone loved to hate you. Then again, I hated you. Before I knew you.
A time before when everything made sense. In these times nothing feels like it will ever be the same.
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RomanceLauren is an average teenager trying to navigate her last year of high school. In the fall, she would be out of the city she grew up in and ready to take on new life challenges to conquer. She planned for her next moments, her dreams-her entire life...
