7 days

Every day is mostly true but the days are mixed of real events, that why some of the time lapses don't make really sense. Also my grammar is really bad bc I'm writing this on my phone, but to be honest I don't think that matters in this kind of book. I would say enjoy but I don't think that the kind of book where you say that?

For everyone who is just like me, alone listening to everyone talk about this special person when you have no one, are no ones number one.

Day 1
Its a clear day, some people would call it the perfect weather. It wasn't to hot or to cold, the breeze of the wind took a scent of fall with it.

I walked up the street to my house, my eyes looked at the street, the song teardrops from bring me the horizon was drumming in my ears,while I starred into emptieness.

It was pointless

My sister who was walking next to me pulled me to the side beacuse a car was driving up the street.

It would have been better if I just stayed on the street getting run over by a car, wouldn't it?

I opened the door leading to our garden and put a smile on my face, they couldn't know, they wouldn't understand, no one does.

My mom opened the front door asking how school was. "as always", I answered, a simple answer not to much not to less.

I entered my room and opened my laptop. It's a beautiful escape isn't it I thought as I turned up my music and opened my favorite game.

It was getting dark outside, I sighted, I haven't eat much today, I should probally drink some water too.

I went down to the kitchen getting myself some bread and a glass of water, I looked on the clock 11pm, I sighted again and went up to my room to eat.

I connected my box to my Laptop and opened Spotify, and put in a random Playlist before I went to my bed to sleep, well at least to try.

It was two hours later my clock singend 3am when I finally drivited into a sleep full of dreams I sadly would remember in the morning.

Day 2

My alarm buzzed me awake, it was six in the morning, way to early to stand up. I still went over to the bathroom put on my clothes and looked in the murrow, I looked so weird like I wasn't me.

My eyes ached to sleep but I ignored them and kept walking to my busstop. My sister was sick today, my friend who usually sits in the bus with me too. So I just put up a song in my Playlist and looked out of the window, bleeding out the world.

A kid asked if it could sit next to me I just responded with a short "yes" and looked out of the window again. The kid seemed around eight I couldn't describe the feeling but it made me feel save having this kid sit next to me, like a little sibling like when I was little sitting next to my siblings.

I walked up the way to my school my friends where already waiting for me. I started to talk with my best friend but as always the conversation somehow ended about her boyfriend.

I liked her boyfriend, he was nice and he made her happy, but it just made me realise again I'm no one's first option.

It hurts, hurts so muchy heart is aching my stomach is craving for something that isn't there. Its like you're inlove, got your heart broken, haven't eaten in days and beeing lonely in one feeling.