Fields of Heaven

Prologue

Dear Diary,

What’s it like to show your true emotions? I always have to be happy. Even though I’m not. Happiness is like the furthest thing in my mind. Every day I worry about how I look. Not just physically but also as a person. Do I make people aspire to be better? Or do I make people hate themselves because they compare themselves to the image that I’ve perfected over the past few years. Let me tell you this, John Lennon was right. Being happy is what you should aim to be, because it’s the one thing you can’t truly control. To top it off, I came up with a new idea for how to end it; imagine jumping in front of a train. Too cliché? It’s weird, I’m used to regret thinking it once I write down my ideas but now I don’t feel that way anymore. It’s both terrifying and enlightening.

My whole family is the picture perfect image that you would expect to be happy, which only make it worse. It’s so hard to meet their expectations. 

I have turned into my worst nightmare. Save me.

Annabelle

☆゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆゜・。。・゜☆

Author's Note:

This prologue makes the story seem really dark and filled with depression. I swear it's not as bad as it seems. There's gonna be fun stuff and yeah, bear with me :)

Throughout the entire story, I have actually planned the playlist and I hope you actually listen to the songs for each chapter. They don't necessarily correspond to each chapter but as a whole the songs work together. 

Please leave comments with suggestions or i don't know, just feedback. 

-Astrid