Timing || l.p

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Sometimes in life everything lined up perfectly and timing is ideal. In this situation the timing was ironic. Here I am looking at all the articles about liam paynes "mystery hookup" If only they knew I was so much more. As far as the fans know and the media know liam Payne is dating Sophia smith and is completely loyal to her. Little did they know I've been seeing liam way before sophia came along. I know about her but she knows nothing of me and I'm completely fine with that. It seems this is perfect timing for her to find out Liam's cheating on her considering all the cheating rumors going on with Louis and Zayn. Now my picture was breaking news.
Everyone knows as you get comfortable with something you start to get sloppy this is obviously what had happened with me and liam. I can't tell you why I though it was a good idea to go out on the balcony but liam didn't object either so it's not entirely my fault. I'm glad it was that moment they captured I was happy in the picture and it showed. I had walked out onto the balcony feeling the light breeze holding on to the railing. Then Liam came out and warped his arms around me and looked at the sky with me.

I know I'm ruining his relationship with his "girlfriend" Sophia. Why should I feel bad about doing what makes me happy? I know Liam's happy with me too you can see it on his face. the only worry I have is why he hasn't made us Official am I not pretty enough to be seen with him? I hardly think that's the problem considering sophia looks like his mother standing next to him. I know I'm not the best looking girl in the world I have flaws I know them better then anyone else. but what the hell is stopping him from being happy with me in the public eye the way he was with Danielle or Sophia for that matter.

I might as well enjoy the moment I know soon someone will recognize me and all the fangirls will know who I am. it's just a matter of waiting for it to happen. I guess being well know on the Internet is going to come back and bite me soon. Can't wait to read all the anon hate on my Tumblr.

Why all the sudden am I being so affected by other people's opinions. those people don't know me they only know what others tell them. I already got hate not as much as I know I'll be getting when the rag mags finally get my name. The story's been out for a few hours now the picture was taken last night. My name will be out along with my social media accounts.

I can't fathom why I have so much anxiety about people knowing I'm with Liam this is what I want. I want to be known as Liam's girlfriend. But what if that's not how everything works out. what if Liam ditches me to keep his good reputation. technically that reputation is already gone. I need to speak to Liam and see how the rest of my life is going to pan out. who knew that walking outside to get some air with the man I love could cause so much trouble.

I have to talk to Liam about all of this as soon as possible. I need to rid my mind of all this wondering and the only way to do that is to see what Liam has decided.