JackSeptiCutie

I was a rising young youtuber under the name BiscuitCutie. My channel was mainly composed of my favorite songs that I would cover with some vlogs thrown in. Occasionally, I would play a video game or two. It wasn't much, but I was gaining popularity fairly quickly. I was close to reaching 1 million subscribers when I got a phone call from the people who ran Pax, a youtuber convention that was held out on the west coast. I was confused as to why they were calling me since they mainly had the "let's players" like Pewdiepie and Markiplier as guests. I answered the phone and they said that my video of my cover of Savin' Me by Nickleback was gaining popularity and that they wanted to have me on a panel to talk about it. This would explain it since I had done that cover for the Septiplier ship that I followed. I told them that I would be there.
A few weeks later I found myself in Boston. It had been chaos leading up to this point. Having to take off work to be able to attend, trying to get my plane and hotel booked, and trying to figure out what I would be doing while I was at Pax. I found out that I was going to be on a panel with Jacksepticeye, Markiplier, and Pewdiepie and another panel with Jack and Mark only. I was so excited because they were my absolute favorites. This was either going to be the most exciting thing I have ever done, the most nerve-wracking thing I have ever done, or both.
The first day at Pax was chaotic. Trying to check in and find out where I was suppose to go was scary. I finally found someone who could help me and they lead me to where they were doing the panels. It was a huge stage in front of so many seats. It looked like a gigantic concert hall. When I got there I saw the other three standing by the back entrance door waiting for the panel to start. I completely froze. I could not believe I was going to be sharing the stage with these guys.
It was Jack who saw me first. A big grin spread across his face.
"There she is!" He yelled.
The others turned and saw me and followed his lead. I was greeted with big grins and smiles. They all walked over to me and took turns hugging me and introducing themselves. I was dumbfounded.
"She is so nervous; look at her! She looks like a cherry!" Pewdiepie said.
This only made me blush more. I was already so nervous and him teasing me was not helping anything. 
"Come on Pewds, cut her some slack. This is her first time doing anything like this." Mark stepped in and said.
"I know Marky Mark, I'm just giving her a hard time." Pewdiepie said with a chuckle.
They then took turns explaining to me how the panel was going to work and what we were going to do and talk about. It seemed pretty straight forward, but I was still trying to get over the fact that I was completely starstruck. I didn't have that much more time to try and do this because before I knew it, the place began filling with people and we were being rushed to the stage. They took turns introducing each of us and after each one was introduced we would run out on stage to applause and cheers. The panel went a lot smoother and was much easier than I thought it would be. They were easy to talk to and interact with and they did nothing but make me laugh and feel at home, just like they did when I watched their videos. We mainly just ended up playing Cards Against Humanity, which was definitely a lot of fun. I had only played it a couple times with my family and some friends, but playing it with them was A LOT different. It was definitely more embarrassing since they went to extremes when playing the game.
After we played several rounds of that, we went to the twitter feed to answer some questions from people in the audience. A lot of the questions centered around me since I was a newbie.
"This one's for you Biscuit, um... what is your favorite Septiplier fan fiction?" Pewdiepie asked.
Mark and Jack almost doubled over laughing while I stood there with my hands on my cheeks trying to hide the extreme blush coming through.
"Um... well... not gonna lie... anything with Septiplier "Lemon" is pretty good..." I answered pretty nervous.
"Holy crap you read that?!" They all asked surprised. All I could do was nod.
"Well well well..." Jack said in a teasing tone.
"Come on Jack, leave her alone. I think we've all read our fair share of Septiplier fan fiction at this point." Mark said putting his arm around me.
All the fans lost it when Mark did this. That's when Pewdiepie chimed in.
"Well it looks like another fan fiction mash-up is making it's way through. What do you all think?"
The crowd went nuts for this. I could not believe Pewdiepie was feeding the fan fiction world and throwing me into the mix. It was now Jack's turn.
"Hey! Mark's mine Biscuit! And if he gets fan fiction with you then I want some to. I mean, it's only fair right?" Jack teased with a wink at me.
The crowd roared again. I was just left with my mouth hanging open. This could not be happening. And they were only just getting started. Pewdiepie chimed back in.
"Well let's take a vote then... for those who still ship Septiplier, yell." The crowd erupted in deafening applause and cheers. I knew that would not die.
"Ok... now who would like to ship CutiePlier?" The crowd cheered and applauded.
"And finally... who would like to ship JackSeptiCutie?" The crowd erupted again, a little bit louder than CutiePlier got.
"Well Mark... looks like Biscuit is meant to be with Jack." Pewdiepie said with a playful shrug. While he talked Jack playfully pushed Mark away from me and put his arm around me.
"Well fine then!" Mark said as he played off that he was pouting. I couldn't help but laugh. I should have expected this since I was here because of a video I had uploaded for Septiplier. I decided it was best to just go along with it.
"Sorry Mark, but the fans have spoken." Jack teased again. Another round of applause from the audience.
Once the panel was over, we all went out and did a signing with the fans. It was pretty chaotic, but so fun at the same time. A lot of people were wanting to take pics with or of the shipped couples because of the panel. This was... entertaining to say the least since we all had a significant other in our lives, but we did as the fans wanted and tried to keep the poses and pictures clean enough so that no one could say anything was really going on between any of us.
Once the signing was over, we were all done for the day. After talking with the guys, I found out that Mark and Jack were staying in the same hotel that I was. The three of us decided to go back there and hit the bar before we went to bed. It was so much fun. Mark didn't drink much because of his condition, but me and Jack were going drink for drink and shot for shot with Mark cheering us on.
It was getting pretty late so Mark said his good nights and went up to his room. Jack and I decided to have one last shot together before we went our separate ways. After the last shot I stood up, but almost fell over in the process. I had never drank so much before and I was feeling pretty dizzy. Jack looked pretty gone as well, but he was more steady on his feet than I was. He offered to help me back to my room.
Once we both staggered up there I fumbled with my room key. When I was finally able to get the door open I turned to Jack to thank him for helping me up to my room and to say good night. In that moment that I looked at him, something clicked between the both of us. Before we knew it we were lunging at each other, wrapping our arms around each others' waists and kissing each other like our lives depended on it, our tongues fighting over who should be on top. He walked me backwards into the room and kicked the door closed. All the while we were beginning to strip each other down. I lifted his shirt over his head while he worked to get my belt and jeans off. Everything became a blur from there. Clothes were flying all over the room, I was backed onto the bed, Jack was on top of me, underneath me, back on top of me, and inside me. It was a night of drunken ecstasy to say the least.
The next morning a pounding headache woke me up. I was definitely hungover. I didn't want to open my eyes, but I knew I had to. Slowly, I tried to open them but ended up having to close them again. The room was still spinning a bit. I took a few deep breaths and tried again. I was able to open them this time, even though the room was still moving. I sat up and tried to steady my dizziness, but then I noticed something was off. I looked down at myself and saw that I was naked.
"Oh shit..." I whispered. What did I do last night? I hoped I didn't do what I thought, but the clothes all over the room suggested I had. I reached down and grabbed the nearest item of clothing I could find. It was a pretty baggy t-shirt. It looked familiar... I knew who it belonged to but I couldn't think of the name of the owner off the top of my head. It was then I heard slight snoring from the bed. I slowly turned around and I felt my stomach sink as low as it had ever been.
"Oh god... what have I done?" I breathed.
All I could see was a tuft of green and brown hair laying on the pillow. There was only one person it belonged to. Jack. That's why the shirt looked familiar. It was Jack's from the day before. I had slept with Jack! This was bad, so bad. He stirred, but didn't wake up. I went into the bathroom to try and think this through. I didn't know what to do. I had a fiancé back home and Jack had a girlfriend back in Ireland, but we had hooked up. What caused it? I tried to remember the moment that sparked it. The only thing I could remember was looking at him before going into my room and the next thing we were all over each other. There was nothing in the moment that stood out... but maybe it was the talk of the ships at the panel and then the drinking after? I had no idea. My mind was swimming from both the hangover and trying to sort out this mess.
When I had finally decided to walk out of the bathroom, Jack was sitting on the edge of the bed. He was facing away from me and I could see that he had his head in his hand. I didn't know what to do or what to say to him since I had never been in a situation like this before, especially with someone famous like Jack. I looked around the room and noticed there was something missing. My heart sank. I looked all over the floor and in the wastebaskets in the room, but there was still no sign of one. There were no condom wrappers or used condoms anywhere in the room. We were screwed. I was on the pill, but with my family history of fertility, that did not make me feel any better.
Jack finally stood up and pulled on his boxers. He was very unsteady on his feet. He must have felt just as bad as I did from the hangover. I could tell just by the way he was moving that he didn't know that much about what had happened last night, but that he was piecing together things from the state of the room. When he finally turned around and saw me, his face fell. All I could think to do was put my arm behind my head and look down. This was so awkward, more awkward than I could have ever imagined.
I was the first one to finally speak.
"Um... hi." I knew it was lame as soon as I said it, but it was all I could think to say.
"Hi yourself." He said with a nervous smile.
"So... do you know exactly what happened last night?" He asked me with a nervous glance around the room.
I took a deep breath before answering.
"Well, I remember that we basically threw ourselves at each other when I got the door open. From there... well... you can figure it out." I motioned to the clothes littered around the room to emphasize this.
"Oh fuck..." He said before putting his head in his hands.
"And um, I didn't find any indication that we used protection..." I said in just barely a whisper. It was this that snapped Jack back. He looked up with a frightened look on his face. It made me want to cry; seeing him that scared.
"Please Bri, please tell me you are at LEAST on birth control?" He asked in a pleading tone. I nodded, but his look of mild relief didn't make me feel any better.
I don't know how long we stood there in silence, but it felt like an eternity. I felt horrible that all this was happening to him and to myself.
It was a knock on the door that brought us back to reality. We both looked at each other with a panicked expression before Jack went to the window to check who it was. He peaked ever so slightly out of the curtains.
"Shit, it's Mark!" He whisper screamed. We both panicked. How were we going to explain this?! There was nothing else we could really do, but open the door. I went there slowly and tried to open it as little as I could, but either way he was going to figure out that something was up.
"Hey Bri. Have you seen Jack? I went to his room but he wasn't..." He trailed off when he noticed the shirt I had on.
"Bri? Why are you wearing Jack's shirt?" He asked in an urgent, and almost accusatory, tone. I sighed and opened the door to let him in. After he was in the room, I shut the door as he noticed Jack standing there in just his boxers. Mark's mouth hung open in shock as he looked around and saw all the clothes scattered everywhere. 
"What did you... what happened to... what?!" This was all that Mark could get out. Jack and I weren't much help either. We couldn't think of anything to say to try and explain this. We got drunk and fucked was basically what happened. It was blunt, but that was the best explanation I could come up with in my head. I couldn't bring myself to say it out loud though so I just kept quiet. Mark kept looking back and forth between the two of us; waiting for one of us to speak. Jack was finally the one who broke the silence.
"Honestly Mark, we don't really know what happened. I mean, the obvious happened..." he said as he motioned around the room.
"but we are both not completely sure how it got there. We both got pretty drunk last night after you left and I guess it just happened."
I wanted to cry hearing him say it all out loud. Last night was such a huge mistake and I wished it had never happened. I could tell Jack felt the same as I did by the look on his face. Mark was at a loss for words. All he did was sigh and shrug. I didn't expect much else from him. There was nothing much else to say. Mark went up to Jack and whispered something in his ear before leaving the room and shutting the door behind him. We stood there for a minute before I started gathering up my clothes and heading into the bathroom. I still had Jack's shirt on, but I figured I could give it back to him once I was dressed.
When I was finally back in all my own clothes, I walked out of the bathroom and saw Jack looking around the room. Since he was dressed in all his other clothes, I could only assume he was looking for his shirt. I walked up to him and, without making eye contact, handed it to him. He quietly put it on and sat on the edge of the bed. I could not bring myself to look at him. He finally spoke.
"So, Mark told me that he got a call from the people who run Pax. They told him that our panel was moved back an hour and that he needed to let us know. That's why he was looking for me this morning."
"Ok. I'm glad he let us know." I said in almost a whisper.
"Bri, can we please talk about what happened?" He pleaded with me.
I turned away from him. The last thing I wanted to do was talk more about what had happened last night.
"There's really not much to say other than that it was a mistake... and that I'm sorry it happened." I said to the wall. I heard movement behind me and I could tell he had made his way over to me.
"You don't have to be sorry. I am just as much responsible as you are. I mean... it takes two to tango right?" He asked with a joking tone to his voice. Despite myself, I let out a laugh. Even in a situation like this, he doesn't fail to make me laugh. I finally turned around and faced him.
"Sean, I really am truly sorry though that it happened. I know we both have people back home we are with and I am still in utter shock that this happened. I can't begin to tell you how embarrassed and ashamed I am."
He looked down and scratched behind his head. I couldn't read the expression that was on his face.
"Is it wrong to say that I'm not so sorry it happened?" After he asked he tentatively looked up at me. I was dumbfounded. How could he be happy that this happened?!
"I mean, I'm not saying that I'm HAPPY this happened... but I'm not exactly sorry about it. I mean, I have had kind of a celebrity crush on you since I found your channel."
I could not believe this. Jacksepticeye has a crush on me and sees me as a celebrity?! I would have gone into total fan girl mode if we weren't in the situation we were in. I decided to take a chance.
"I mean, I've had a huge crush on you to Sean. I have loved your videos for a long time and, not trying to sound weird, I think you are very attractive. My fiancé even knows that I find you hot." I looked at him, expecting the worst. I was wrong.
He was looking at me with the biggest smile and even chuckled a little.
"Well, at least we didn't hook up as TOTAL total strangers then." He continued to laugh and I was finally able to join him.
After we were done laughing Jack decided to go back to his room so that he could get ready for the panel. We both agreed that we would not bring this up to anyone we know and that we would talk to Mark when we saw him before the panel to make sure he didn't say anything either. Once Jack left my room I flopped back onto the bed. I needed a minute to relax and unwind. Having the panel pushed back an hour definitely helped with this. Instead of having three hours to get ready and head back I had four. This was plenty of time to try and relax and get my thoughts and feelings in order before the panel. I decided some tv would help. I turned it on and found that Spongebob was playing. I decided to keep it here so that there was at least something going on in the room that was upbeat. While Plankton was trying to steal the Krabby Patty formula for the millionth time, I began looking through my suitcase to find what I was going to wear today. All I had was Jacksepticeye stuff to wear. I couldn't help but laugh at this. Oh the irony.
Once I was done getting dressed I had plenty of time to do my make-up the way I wanted. I couldn't help but think that I was trying to impress the guys by doing this. I pushed the thought out of my head. Why would I want to do that? Especially since I had slept with one of the other two people on the panel. I pushed that thought out of my head to. Even though it wasn't the worst thing in the world that could have happened, I still didn't want to think about it. I found my thoughts drifting to Jesse back home and my heart sank once again. How was I going to hide something like this from him? And if I did decide to tell him, how would I go about doing this? It was going to be so difficult going home and trying to figure that out.
While I was finishing up with my make-up there was a knock on my room door. I went and answered it and Jack was standing there. I got all nervous again. I had a feeling he was going to have this affect on me for the rest of the event.
"So, Mark and I are going to grab something to eat before we head over to the convention center. Do you want to join us? I know it may be a little awkward, but it's better than being alone."
I nodded to show that I would go. He waited in my doorway while I finished what I was doing and getting my things put away. When I turned around to head out the door I couldn't help but blush as I walked past the bed. It was still a mess from last night. Jack seemed to pick up on my embarrassment because he turned around and went into the hallway. I locked my room and we headed down to the lobby to meet up with Mark in silence. It was so hard to think of something to say to him now.
Once we met up with Mark we headed to a small restaurant not that far from the convention center. We got a table and ordered. It was uncomfortably quiet at the table. When our food finally came out, Jack finally decided to speak.
"Mark, me and Bri need to ask you something." Jack said with a side glance in my direction.
"Let me guess, you want me to keep quiet about what I saw this morning?" Mark said with a playful smile. Jack and I both nodded in unison.
"Don't worry guys. I wasn't planning on saying anything to anyone. Just be prepared for some... uncomfortable questions on the panel today because of yesterday's panel discussion." Mark said with a sincere smile. I could tell he was being honest with us. This made me feel better at least. The rest of lunch was a lot better. We were able to talk as friends again and we had a few laughs. I could almost forget about what had happened last night.
Once we were finished with lunch we made our way back to the convention center. We got there with a few minutes to spare so while we made our way to the stage area where the panel was going to be we stopped every now and then and took pictures with fans who saw us walking across the convention center. When we finally got to the stage, it was time for the panel. It started out the same as the panel the day before. We were all introduced one at a time and we ran out to applause and cheers once again. The audience was a little smaller today, but we had been warned that this would happen since the panel only had the three of us on it. This time, the panel consisted mainly of answering questions from the twitter feed. Thankfully, at least for the beginning of the panel, the questions weren't focused on the ships and asked questions of each of us individually. Then, the first awkward question came up.
"Ok Biscuit, this one's all you. 'Can you...' oh geez, 'can you perform the song Scream by Usher to the guys? Or can you perform All The Way to Jack?" Mark asked. He shot me a quick look. Either option was pretty awkward. Scream was a song about sex and the other was a song made for Jack.
I tried to play it sneaky. "Well, which one would the audience prefer? If you want me to perform Scream for the two of them, cheer." The crowd erupted.
"Ok, if you want me to perform All The Way to Jack, cheer." The crowd erupted again, but not as loud as the first option. Damn it.
I tried another tactic. "I would love to do that for you guys, but I don't have any music prepared for me to perform to." I thought that maybe I had been spared. I was wrong. The tech guys announced that they could pull it up and play it over the speakers if the audience really wanted it. The crowd roared with approval. This sucked. I was going to have to perform a song about sex to the two of them. Oh well, if I wanted to keep my fan base I knew I had to do it.
"All right guys. Tech guys, go ahead and fire up that track!" As the music began, Mark and Jack sat down on the couch the people at Pax had on the stage for us. When the music came on, I became a different person. I let my body and my love of performing take over. I performed the song better than I had ever sang it before and I made up some appropriate choreography on the spot. When the high point of the song came on where Usher drags out a note, both the guys' jaws dropped at how well I was able to execute it. I ended the song behind the couch with my arms wrapped around both guys. I panted and breathed so hard, but the applause I received from the crowd made it all worth it. I looked at the guys as the crowd began to go quiet and they both mouthed "Great job!" to me. I couldn't help but smile.
Once the crowd got quiet and I had drank some water so that I could cool down, Mark was the first to speak.
"Hot damn Biscuit! I didn't know you had that in you. Not gonna lie... I'm kind of erect right now." He said looking down at his crotch.
The crowd laughed. I shot Mark a look. I was hoping he would get the idea that he was pushing it with me. He shot a "calm down" look back at me and winked. I looked at Jack and he just shrugged and smiled. I could tell he wasn't letting it get to him so I tried not to let it get to me as well. The rest of the panel went smoothly. A couple awkward questions came up, but none that were as bad as that one had been. They were much easier to deal with.
The end of the event came to quickly for my liking. Even though me and Jack had had our night together, I was sad the event was over. After the final day ended and everyone had left the convention center, all the Youtubers got together for one last send off dinner. It was one hell of a time! We were all there cracking jokes, taking pictures, and just shootin' the shit. I was so upset that I had to go home the next day. It was difficult for me, knowing that I had to return to reality and face the consequences of what I had done when I got back home. After the dinner ended we all said our goodbyes and left each other. Jack, Mark, and I were the only ones going to the same hotel so we all took a cab together. I was so tired from the long night that I rested my head on Jack's shoulder. Mark looked at us with a strange look, but I didn't care. I don't think Jack did either because he rested his head right back on mine. When the cab pulled up to our hotel it was so hard for me to muster up the strength to get out. When I finally did, the guys followed suit. We said our goodbyes, exchanged contact information, and went our separate ways. Mark had snuck my phone and had taken a sneaky picture of me and Jack in the cab. Even though it was a little dark, it still came out pretty good. I set it as Jack's contact picture. I sighed as I entered my room and fell onto the bed. Going home was going to be so difficult, but I had to. I had to face the consequences of my actions at some point. I pushed the thought out of my head and allowed myself to go to sleep.