The Lost The Damned

Companion

Its been almost three months after becoming close with Yasuda. She has an interesting lifestyle and being around her made me feel different as she teaches me about everyday life.

We were sitting in my living room doing homework and listening to a playlist she made. We weren't getting homework done as she was too busy showing me how to draw.

Yasuda: You have a very creative mind.

Eli: I try.

Yasuda: No, really. It's good!

Eli: Thanks..

I'm not used to people praising me. i never will get used to it. She scooted next to me and layed her head on my shoulder.

Yasuda: You know.. i feel much closer to you than i did with Jake.

Eli: I'm glad you think that. I don't think he was right for ya.

It got silent. She was staring into my eyes.

Yasuda: Your pupils are dilated.

Eli: Huh?

Yasuda: It's when your pupils get big when you're in love or feeling a certain way.

Eli: Oh uh.. cool! nice to know.

I still don't know what love is but i pretended like i did.

Yasuda: You don't know what love is do you?

Eli: I.. do not. i never knew.

Yasuda: Is that why you're so awkward around me?

Eli: Maybe. I just don't want to say the wrong things.

She was still staring into my eyes locked in. She reached in and kissed my lips.

Yasuda: I feel.. different around you, Eli. you make me feel wanted.

Eli: I'm glad i can make you feel that way.

She kissed me again, longer this time.

Yasuda: It's getting late i should go.

i walked her to the front door and she turns around.

Yasuda: What are we?

Eli: What do you mean?

Yasuda: Are we together?

Eli: Like a companionship?

Yasuda: Something like that yes.

Eli: Um yeah sure.

Yasuda: Okay!

she kisses my lips one last time.

Yasuda: bye! i love you!

Eli: I'll see you tomorrow.

i still don't know what it is. i don't know how to reply to that.

hopefully soon i'll know.