Have you ever felt a sense of shock from someone you never expected from him?
If you felt like that, I apologize for what you went through
But if you don't, I advise you to read my story to benefit from it
Because I really don't want anyone to live what I lived
Dear reader, I want to tell you that everything I write is factual and excerpted from my personal life
In the summer of one year,
And exactly three years ago I met a boy I fell in love with, but I never dared to tell him,Because I thought if I told him he would hate me, and I said this love will be gone in a few weeks,But it got out of control,I literally became obsessed with him, it occupied my mind every minute, I couldn't think of anything but it,So much so that I went to his school just to see him every day, but it did not go as I planned it, whenever I saw him I was in pain because I could not talk to him, although we were best friends and more, but I did not dare to talk to him,I saw him in my dreams every night, and I woke up wet with my tears,As for my grades in school, they were in a continuous decline. I could have failed that year, but thank God I was able at the end of the year to save myself.
We met the next summer too, and we were very close to each other, we shared all the moments together, that summer I learned to control my feelings,Or rather, I learned to swim in the sea of his love.
When the summer ended, our communication did not stop, even though I changed school because I saw that this was the most appropriate solution.
We met incessantly Throughout the school yearAnd every time I saw him coming towards me, I felt butterflies in my stomach.I wish every time that our meeting time would never end,but got used to it,And I started to feel that being friends was a lot better than nothing, so I continued to treat him like my best friend and I felt it was the right thing to do.
And at this time I was ready to start a relationship with someone else, so I tied up with a boy two years older than me, and our relationship was perfect.
But that didn't stop my feelings for him,On the contrary, it was increasing day by day.This did not prevent me from completing my relationship.
But with the coming of summer, my feelings for the boy I was dating began to fade, so I broke up with him without thinking and hurt him a lot.
I focused all my thoughts on him, I wanted to take him, I wanted him to be mine, because he took my heart from the first moment we met,And of course I did everything to make him fall in love with me,And with time, I felt that it would happen.
And like I didn't tell you before I trusted him to an indescribable degree and I used to tell him all the details of my life, not because I loved him, but because he was a reliable person.He would never have hurt me, because the amount of conscience and humanity that I saw in him was great, and this is what I loved most about him I saw in him a noble, wise and mature man, I did not expect anything bad from him at all.
But in the summer of this year, I was shocked by the shock of my life, because he was the last person I expected that from him at all.
As I told you, I had prepared a plan, but I think he was the one who turned the plan on me.
Because he started acting like he liked me, and we lived together a moment that I didn't live in my life with anyone else, and he promised me that he would tell me about that moment when he was less stressed.
But when I asked him to speak, he started telling me you are stupid and you are not normal and He has nothing to tell me,I did not expect these words from him and I spent all the next period behaving like nothing happened, I was like a psychopath or I was in a coma, I became very nervous and broke the heart of everyone around me, everyone hated me, and I used to spend most of the time cryingAnd I don't know the reason, and I say that the mistake was my fault, and did you know that I still had hope He would come and talk to me about what happened, but after a period of two weeks or more, I woke up from a coma, which was not a comaIt was a shock.
No one will know how much my soul is burned and my heart is broken, not because I lived that moment with him, but because I never expected anything like this from him.
And do you know that I still want to know why he did thisBecause I considered him one of the dearest people in my life, and I could have done anything for him.
And I wish I had never fallen in love with him, because his friendship was the best thing in my life.
And now I've lost one of my best friends and I think I've lost him forever.
