The Lost The Damned

Say Your Peace Or Forever Cry

-Yasuda's POV-
It was a windy and cold afternoon i was walking the streets alone as Jake left me because i'm too "clingy" i saw a hill with a bench so i went to sit and think.

There was a figure sitting there already but i also didn't want to be alone so i continued to walk up the hill until i reached the bench.

Yasuda: Excuse me, can i sit here?

he nodded.

i sat down and looked the other way. He started smoking and threw the half used cigarette down the cliff. I couldn't see his face only his back but.. something seemed familiar about him. I saw a tattoo, it was some sort of serial number or initials. It was him.

Yasuda: Eli..?

He turned around and saw me, frightened.

Eli: Oh, hey there.

Yasuda: What are you doing here? I thought you moved?

Eli: Had to stay in the state to finish my schooling and do my regular check ups.

Yasuda: Oh that sounds fun

Eli: It's whatever, how are you? your boy?

Yasuda: We aren't a thing anymore.

Eli: Ah. Sorry to hear that.

Yasuda: Yeah..

He started smoking again.

Yasuda: You know, those kill you right?

He chuckled.

Eli: Whatever kill's me faster.

I looked down.

Eli: I'm kidding, dude. i don't even have functioning lungs. I'm not fully a human remember?

Yasuda: Oh yeah..

I looked down again and frowned.

Eli: What's going on in your head?

Yasuda: Nothing. Not like it's important anyway.

Eli: I'm sure it is important. Everything is important.

I started getting mad. I don't know why. was it the fact that he had no feelings or anything? or the fact that i feel like he doesn't care?

Yasuda: I'm fine. Just leave it.

Eli: Fine.

He turned around rolling his eyes.

Yasuda: You have no consideration for others feelings do you? you have no sympathy.

Eli: No. I don't. Can't be more obvious that i am not human!

He raised his voice. I shut down.

He made a face like he realized something.

Eli: Hey, I'm sorry. I'm not meaning to snap at you. It's just.. why come up here just to fight with me? you have to understand that i'm still learning everything.

Yasuda: Yeah i know.

I rolled my eyes.

Eli: Whatever dude.

Yasuda: You don't know me do you? you don't care.

Eli: I do.

I got up.

Yasuda: No, you don't. You act like everything is fine and nothing is wrong with the world. You don't even bother to ask what i'm going through.

I started to tear up a little.

Eli: I'm sorry you feel that way. What's happen with you?

Yasuda: You're so lucky you don't have to go through abuse and assault. Men just have better than us. you don't know what it's like you fucking don't, Eli.

He looked down.

Eli: I'm sorry..

Yasuda: Jake hit me. Physical and verbal. you don't know Eli. you don't fucking know..

He got up and raised his voice a little

Eli: I was raped. i do fucking know.

Tears started rolling down his cheek. I have never seen a synth cry.

Yasuda: Eli..

He walked away. Gone.

I fucked up.