My secret journal

Chapter 1

I've always been the type of person who messes up things. Anything that ever makes me happy I ruin. I've become so accustomed to it that whenever things are going great I expect something to ruin it. So many of my greatest treasures have been effected by me. I guess I couldn't handle it anymore the terrible things that I've done I cry thinking about them. It's the fact that no one knows me they all think they do but they don't no one does no one knows me.

As I finish the last sentence in my journal I look at what I've written admiring my calligraphy. My mother taught me how to write in cursive when I was eight. She said it was the most beautiful type of font out there. A tear trails down my face remembering her but I push the memory aside. I close my journal and place it in my box it's made of oak and has golden swirls all around it with my last name on it. Rivera. I kiss the top of my box before placing it under my bed. After rising up from the floor I check my clock dammit 20 minutes till I have to leave I quickly walk to my closet and toss clothes onto my bed. I look at the multi colored outfits laying in front of me. I was going to my dads business meeting. I settled on a navy peplum dress with a criss cross back. The dress just ended at mid thigh and was perfect for the occasion. After shimmying into the dress I struggled to zip it up so I left it deciding I'd deal with it later. I curled my long chestnut hair with ombré tips. Then I did my makeup which I put a smokey eye on my icy blue eyes and red lipstick . Once I finished and sprayed a bit of my favorite perfume on I began my way out of my bathroom I grabbed my black T-strap platform heels and looked at my work. Oh I almost forgot to zipper it!! As I quickly struggled to zip it I'm finally ready I grab my coat and head down stairs. Something bad is going to happen tonight there has to be today has been too happy. it's probably going to be my fault too for whatever might happen.As my heels click on the marble I look around for my father. instead of finding him I find a white note in his place.

Darling I had to leave without you the car will be waiting and remember that Maxwell will be there to get you at 7 please be good
~father

I sigh at the fact he left without me and then laugh at the fact he called Max, Maxwell. God, I should've expected that he wouldn't wait for me. I barely see him as it is why would I see him now. People on the outside think we're so strong after what happened to mom but we're not. Shes the only reason I'd ever see him without her he has nothing holding him back to go head over heels on working. I take care of myself I don't have a particular problem with that I mean he gave me a card so I can buy food and clothes and have a little fun but I still miss him. There was a knock on the door and I open it yelling "took you long....." except it wasn't Max.

Hey guys I'm kelly and this is my story any questions or just wanna talk you can private message me umm so I hope you like it please comment good or bad and I'll update soon xx