WHY (JENLISA//ONE SHOT

memories

I was busy driving when I hear my phone ringing I look down to see who was calling me in the middle of the night I sighed heavily when I see rosé caller id on the screen I honestly don't wanna talk to anybody right now but I've been ignoring them for some time now feeling guilty for not reaching out I answered the call

"Unnie! Thank god you answered where are you? Are you fine? Do you want us to accompany you?" I felt even more guilty knowing I made them worry about my selfish whereabouts

"I'm fine chaeyoung-ah don't worry I'll be back as soon as possible are you with jisoo unnie?"

"Yeah wait a sec I'll call her"after a few seconds I hear jisoo's voice in the background

Hello jennie? Where are you right now? Are you fine?"I chuckled a little caused she asked the same questions rosié already did

"I'm fine unnie I'm on my way to her  right now" I heard the other line became silent can't blame them

"Jennie you should stop--" before she could speak any further I cut her off

"Don't worry unnie this would be the last time I promise" I whispered while trying to hold my tears that's trying to break through

"Okie just come back to us okay? You know were just concerned about you right? We don't want you to suffer alone jen you have us we love you so much" I smiled at her words

"Mmmm I love you both so much too thank you for sticking to my side I'll see you both soon" we said our goodbyes afterwards I look at the road to know where I was and I automatically smile knowing I've already reach my destination a smile find it's way to my face I look at the breathtaking view before me this feels nostalgic nothing has changed here I'm in a cliff of a mountain where you can see the city lights like stars below a bittersweet memory came flashing without a warning

*5 years ago*

"Yah lalisa! Untie me you bitch! Why did you tied me up?!" I burst out angrily but this bitch just keep on laughing since I can't do anything with my hands cause there both tied up I used my feet to kick her and lucky for me it hit her face she looked at me shockingly while I glared at her

"Serves you right now untie me!" I shouted while struggling to move

"Yah nini that hurts! Arghhh,,, and stop moving you'll hurt yourself you dwarf" she teasingly said while I glared at her to the bones

"Then untie me you giant!" but she just looked at me then started laughing again I swear this girl will be the death of me she raised both her hands as a sign of surrender then proceed on untieying me as soon as the rope loosen up I push her to the ground then go on top of her to choke her to death

As I was enjoying my moments of killing her she suddenly tickled me to my side that made my grips on her neck loosen up

"Yah stop it Nalalisa it tickles!" I said laughingly while stoping her hands then out of nowhere she pull me hard but not hard enough to hurt me just enough to make me lay on top of her she let go of my hands then hug me tightly I smiled by her gestures and hug her back we stayed in that position for a while not needing to say a word just our hearts talking

"Boo can you be mine forever?" I looked up to her just to find out that she's already looking at me

"Why? Do you think I will leave you?"she tighten her grips in my waist while looking deeply into my eyes

"No it's just that what if you found someone better than me? What if you have a change of heart? Just what if you leave me for a bo-" before she could utter more stupid words I kiss her lips with all the love I could moisture when I open my eyes I see her dark orbs looking intently to my very being with full of love and adorations I burried my face in her neck to hide my now burning cheeks from her I heard her chuckle because of my action I couldn't help but smile her laughter sounds like a melody to my ears so I hug her tighter

"Nini look at me" I move my head side to side embarrass to look up then she move into a sitting position with me in her lap

"Please boo look at me" even if I don't want to I still did what she asked what can I do I'm whipped when it comes to her but she doesn't need to know that as I stared at her eyes I can feel my stomach doing some flips inside that made me feel weak as I can feel her getting closer I closed my eyes waiting for our lips to collide but instead I felt her lips in the top of my head and that instantly made me smile I sometimes wonder what did I do in my past life to deserve her? She's just to precious I open my eyes as I felt that she's about to stand up so I did she look at me with a smile on her face then suddenly run into the cliff then looked at me with a full teeth smile that put me at ease even though I'm confused by her action

"I'M GONNA MARRY THIS GIRL SOMEDAY YOU HEAR ME! I WILL LOVE HER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE! NO ONE CAN TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME! SHE'S MINE!" she looked at me in the eyes with so much love and passion

"JENNIE KIM! YOU DESERVE EVERY HAPPINESS THAT THE WORLD COULD OFFER AND I LALISA MANOBAN WILL DO MY BEST TO GIVE IT TO YOU NO MATTER WHAT! I SWEAR TO THE STARS BELOW! I LOVE YOU MY JENNIE" god what did I do to deserve you? With tears running down in my eyes I run to her and kiss her lovingly as if my life depends on it there's no way I'm letting this girl go not in a million years

*End of flashback*

I came back to reality as I felt hot liquid running down in my cheeks as my feelings trying to resurface I breakdown from the pain that I can no longer bottled they need release a loud thunder breaks in as if it feels my pain when rain started pouring so did my tears I stayed there no longer caring about what could happen as I cried my heart out I heard footsteps coming my way but I didn't bother to look who was it until I feel it's presence beside me when I looked up my breath hitched and I cried even more the audacity of her to show her face to me she smiled a very sad one I wanted to hug her but I stop myself

"You! How dare you show your face to me I-I--you---" damn it jennie pull yourself together this is not the right time to breakdown

"I despise you, you promise me lis you-" I can't finish what I wanted to say cause I'm having a hard time breathing

"You promise to stay by my side forever, you said you'll never leave me? You promise" I said while covering my eyes I can't take this anymore there's so much pain

"I'm sorry nini I'm sorry I hurt you the universe knows how much I treasured you,  you're the last person I wanted to hurt nini yougdksjfk" for some reasons I couldn't her what she was saying all this emotions inside me are trying to come out all at once but the only thing I can do is cry

"I'm the last person that you wanna hurt? I'm already hurting Lisa more than anything I can't leave without you please come back to me I'm begging you please lili" I let go all of my pride if I have to call me desperate but I don't wanna lose her once more I just can't I can't live without her she's the only person that's keeping me sane my anger rise up as she shook her head I felt as if life's leaving my body and I cried once more feeling defeated

"You're so unfair lili how could you just let us go like this? I can't accept this I just can't" I cried out while shaking my head suddenly I felt her embrace tighter then ever

"Please nini I'm begging you it hurts for me to see you like this you have to let me go to live your life" she said while with me both of our hearts speaks sorrows but how can I when you are my life? I didn't bother to spoke it out since it's no use she scooped my face for me to look at her

"I know it's hard for the both of us but we have to keep moving forward nini I promise you I'll never leave your side I'll still be there with every steps of the way you hear me?" I nodded in defeat and look at her she gave me a reassuring smile that tells me it's going to be okay but it would never be okay so I just closed my eyes and take deep breaths to calm myself when I open my eyes she's no longer there

I looked at my engagement ring and remembered what happened weeks ago that cause all this suffering I'm feeling right now it was on our wedding day but she didn't make it because a stupid motherfucker asshole bump her car that cause the car to tumbling because of the impact tears streaming down in my eyes as I hold the ring close to my heart and look up the sky I can't let you go lili however I'll try my best to live for you even if it means not having you around me i looked at my ring and put it in my necklace that has her intial L she gave this to me in our first anniversary I looked up again ang gave my reassuring smile I love you my lili to infinity and beyond

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