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Monday, March 23rd, 2015

I knew I'd do this. I haven't updated at all for a while. I'm sorry about that. I haven't even been busy. I've been telling myself everyday, "Sarah, you need to update your blog," and I haven't.

My spring break has been boring. I went to the dentist and the orthodontist and the optometrist and was late to all three appointments. Oops.

I went shopping with my mother and my grandmother and I bought two or three things. I bought a shirt and pants. The pants were too small and the shirt was too big. I went back and exchanged them. The pants were two sizes bigger than what I normally wear and they still didn't fit so either the sizes at Forever 21 run smaller or I've just gotten fat over the course of a week and a half. The shirt fits though and it's quite cute.

I had an issue a few nights ago with someone deciding to have me send them pictures and videos on kik and then using those to pretend they were me and I was extremely upset about that. They were really nice at first and I thought we were friends but I guess not. Don't trust people that don't have a profile picture and won't tell you their name or where they're from (yes, I'm stupid. I get it).

I have this thing with a person. He refuses to let me label us so I don't know if we're an item or not. He won't ever tell me anything. Today, he decided not to message me back after I shared something very personal with him. I asked him why and he said I need to pester him so he'll message me back. I told him I won't do that and he said he doesn't message anyone first anymore. First of all, I messaged you first and you didn't even message me back. Secondly, I shouldn't have to bother you to message me. That's really stupid. He said I shouldn't care about bothering him and that I should message him tomorrow so he "doesn't hurt me". I told him to promise me he'll tell me what he was thinking and he said he can't promise so whatever. That's just irritating because he avoids anything I ask him. He refuses to talk about himself. And it's not one of those creepy things. I know what he looks like and where he's from and stuff like that. But if we're together, he should at least be able to tell me about himself and he won't do it.  I'll have an update on what he says tomorrow hopefully.

On another note, I have three guys I'm really close to: my first love, the guy I talked about above^, and a guy who just is kinda like... I don't really know what to say he is because there's no way to describe it. Anyways, I messaged all three of them and none of them responded to me. One of them started arguing with me, one of them read it and didn't say anything, and the other one didn't even read it. I don't know what that tells me but it is irritating that they can't even respond to me and at least tell me they don't want to talk to me or they're busy with something. That just makes me fear I'm annoying them and they don't want me there anymore, you know?

I feel like this blog is slowly going to start becoming my therapist haha. I don't mind that. I just wish I could have more people reading it. I can always use some advice from people that are better at being social than I am.

I think I'll go watch The Perks Of Being A Wallflower (my favorite book) and eat Half Baked Ben & Jerry's ice cream (my favorite dessert) now since I've run out of things to talk about.

I bid thee farewell.