Not like it's the first time sleeping next to a guy it's just it was never someone like him. Not a single guy made me feel like that. And how exactly I can't tell.
For now, we just cuddled a bit and kissed but we never slept together.
Can't believe I was so reckless in asking to stay for a night and he said "yes" so calmly like it was nothing.
He gave me his favorite pajamas and even gave me the privacy to change. I think I felt how my heart shrank cos of his cute gesture.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Breathe in, breathe out.
I think it would be better if I went home, but now lying in his bed, covered in his sheets it's already too late. Besides, it's so nice and cozy...
It was past midnight and dark cos of the clouds and decreasing moon. Only a soft light from the lamp on the floor lighted the room. Even the huge windows from ceiling to floor didn't help, only the view was breathtaking. The whole Seoul was open to the eye.
I wonder what is he doing. He said he will come right away. Is he pampering himself for bed?
I felt tired and just as I closed my eyes I heard Zuho coming in.
He didn't say anything, I just heard him lying behind my back, covering himself with a blanket. For a bit it was silent, so silent I heard my heartbeat like a drumroll.
I froze, waiting for what he will do and he didn't make himself wait. After taking a deep breath he pulled me closer to him.
"I know you aren't sleeping, so don't pretend," Zuho said softly.
"How do you know?"
"I know you too well. You would overthink this moment and couldn't sleep..."
"I was just waiting for you," I sunk into Zuhos hug.
Zuho murmured in joy.
I felt so safe in his arms. I imagined it would be awkward and strange. But it wasn't. Zuho was calm and relaxed and it made me comfortable.
"It's so nice to have you here," Zuho buried his face in the back of my head.
His presence, steady heartbeat, and care felt so good, like a chill pill. I almost fell asleep.
But why is he so calm? Doesn't it mean a thing to him? Am I not special?
"Zuho?"
"Mhm?"
"You are so calm it's frustrating..."
"What?" Zuho sounded sleepy.
"Aren't you nervous? It's the first time we are sleeping together and you are so chill about it," I almost yelled.
"Why would I be nervous? You are MY person! I am comfortable with you".
Oh! I am his! That will resonate in my head for a long, long time.
"Sure, I was thinking about us sleeping together and it made me anxious, but...then I imagined how nice it would be and honestly, I wanted it to happen for so long I am just happy you asked to stay so I didn't need to ask. I was afraid if I asked you would say "no"..."
"Really?" I smiled. Him being anxious cos of this made him so cute.
"Yes, I am relieved it ended up like this and that's why I am so happy," Zuho softly rubbed his nose on my neck. It made me wiggle a little.
Don't remember if I slept somewhere so well, but still, some unpleasant noise woke me up in the middle of the night. At first, I didn't understand what that was but when I was fully awake I didn't hesitate.
"Hey!" I kicked Zuho. But he simply grunted something and didn't wake up.
I couldn't believe it, Zuho snores!
I waited to see if he will snore again and he did.
"Zuho-ya!"
Zuho barely opened his eyes and looked at me and I madly looked back. We stared like that at each other for a while till I broke the silence, "You woke me up!"
After these words, Zuho was fully awake.
"Ugh," Zuho was frustrated, he covered his face with his palms, "I hoped I wouldn't wake you up..."
"Huh?"
"One of the reasons why this all made me anxious was my...snoring. I debated in my head whether should I tell you this or not. But I was scared you wouldn't stay then..." Zuho sighed.
I was so sad, Zuho looked so vulnerable, my heart almost shattered, "No, don't say that. I would stay no matter what and I stayed, cos I really wanted to spend the night with you".
"Really?" Zuho put his hands away from his face.
"Really..."
Zuho got up and pulled me to himself for a kiss and I gladly moved closer.
"But really, can you get used to it?"
Unbelievable, he stopped kissing to ask me that!
"I can't get a different boyfriend, I already choose you, so..." I shrugged my shoulders joking.
Zuho smiled softly, "Well, if so, then I need to compensate you with something..."
"Listening," I grinned.
But Zuho simply kissed me. Oh, in a new way I would never expect from him. A heavy kiss that took my breath away was frightening but so good.
And I thought, if he will compensate me with this kiss every time he snores, I would gladly hear him snore more often.
