I've made many mistakes, but that's not an excuse. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you and promise you I wish I could redo everything so I could've made better choices. You've hurt me so much, but I've learned to forgive. Many people are telling me to move on. How can I move on from someone who was my first love. I can never stop loving you. You made your mistakes, but you respected me and treated me right the most and appriate that. I'm not going to lie, I try my best to hate you so I can move on, but it can't happen. I should be more cynical and tell myself it's not okay. To feel this good when I'm with you. Try my best to fight it, say I hate you but I always stay. That's because nobody love like you do. For some reason you have this love in you that i have never felt with anyone else and that's a sign. I'm in love with you. I just wish you felt the same too. The reason being that I love you too much to let my love I have for you go away. I don;t care what anyone says. I still have faith and I will always have faith in us. I hope you realize that before it's too late. I just want to tell you I love and I hope one day we can go back to the way things were. You saved me from many things and you know what those things are. You're my other half and without you I feel lost and confused.
You have so many characteristics that I love about you. You can make someone smile without even trying. Your smile lights up my world. People can just say your name and I'll start smiling and blushing. You have that big of an effect on me. Your eyes are just wonderful. I fell in love with your eyes. The reason I stare at you is because of your eyes. Your so talented. Every play you have been in, you've killed it. Every sing you sing, you've killed it. Your so caring. You were there when my grandmother died. You were there when I stressed about so many things. You're so confident. You would start dancing at school and not worry bout what other people thought of you. You're so handsome. Everytime you perform in plays, there's always another girl having a crush on you or liking you. You have an amazing personality. You're so respectful. You have never called me out of my name. You she me and my body respect. When we were together and i wasn't ready to kiss you yet and you waited til I was ready, that just made me fall in love with you more. You're such a sweet person. I love you because of all these things. You're just a wonderful person all around. I LOVE YOU EMMANUEL...
