Sebastian My Dearest

New Feelings

The world works in strange ways. The scenarios that happen, like: a boy falling in love with a man or a woman falling in love with a woman or on very rare occasions like this one, a mortal falling in love with a demon. I Ciel Phantomhive have fell in love with my demon butler, Sebastian Michaelis. Where these feelings have came from, I don't know, but I don't care as long as he is by my side.

I am awoken from my daydream by Elizabeth (my fiancé) standing in front of my desk with a goofy grin on. Yes I know what you are thinking, a boy at the age of 15 should not be in love with a demon and be engaged to a noble, but of course I am the Earl of Phantomhive. So who cares of my age!?! Well apparently I do.

"Hello Lizzy." it was a simple greeting, but it still got her attention. "Oh Ciel, I've missed you so much." I guess now is as good a time as any to tell her the marriage is off. I have wanted to call it off ever since I found out about my feelings for Sebastian, but I have never had the heart to break hers. I could never tell her why I had broken her heart because it was wrong to want what I want.

"Lizzy we need to talk, could you take a seat?" I asked her quietly. She just nodded and sat. I wonder why she is being so obedient. "What'cha wunna talk about." She said smiling way to much considering what I am about to say. "Lizzy I am calling the wedding off." I said in a monotonous voice. She looked shocked and then hurt and then she started to straight out sob. I didn't want to see her like this. "Why?" She yelled. "I am in love with someone else." I answered the easy question with an even easier answer. "Who?" She whispered, bringing her sobbing down to sniffling. "I can't tell you because I can't have the person I love because it would be taboo to be with him." I said all of this without thinking. When I look up I see Lizzy gaping at me."What is it Lizzy?" I asked. "You. Said. Him." Oh shit, now I know what she means. "Ciel, are you gay?" She gasped when all I did was shake my head yes.

"Please tell me who it is Ciel, you know I won't judge." She pleaded with me. "Fine, but you can't tell him." I said impatiently. "Wait so I know him?" She said surprised. "Yes." Is my only reply. "So who is it?" She asked once more. "Sebastian Michaelis, my butler." As soon as I said this I heard a sound outside the door. It had been a muffled "Oh!". I ran to the door and yanked it open only to see the very raven haired man we had just been discussing.

He just turned around and walked away, even when I tried calling his name he just kept walking away. As this all happened a single hot tear ran down my cheek. I felt a hand on my face wiping the tear away. I look down to see Elizabeth with a small, pitiful smile on her face looking back up at him. I whispered a small thanks and told her she should be heading home soon. She just agreed and left without a question. I then headed upstairs. I had something to do. See Sebastian.