OC & AU list 2 (Wait what-)

The Thing About Perfection (Rant)

i'm just gonna say it right here right now... wearing wet socks like its normal is a war crime (to me) unless you're taking a shower

Ok back to the actual subject; ✨Being perfect✨

So me and a pal of mine were talking about the last chapter i posted here (Incorrect Quotes 8, the part about Adam and Madeline trying to figure out what Ann isn't perfect at) and he asked 

'I know that she's your self-insert and all but since when was Ann ever perfect?'

She isn't, she's just wearing the mask/illusion of it and is considered perfect. People see her as someone who is smart, happy and pretty. No one is truly perfect because well perfection is different for everyone, Ann is just how i see myself if i reach my own standards for my own mask of perfection... more or less, this is all sorta hard to explain in one go.

My first self insert was Blackrose, but she became more of her own character and not me, plus she was also low key the ideal big sister i wanted back then but that's not important-

First draft Rose was much more serious and badass than she is now (now she can be seen doing concerning things with her siblings + cousins), i literally just based her on how i wanted to be and not how i am. So her being perfect was a solid for me for the first and second year i had her with me

Now that she is her own character and not me, she's way more chaotic than before and more lively than her serious first version who wouldn't hesitate to drop kick someone. Technically she still would now but she's slightly hesitant now-

But Ann however, she's literally just a smoothen out version of me who has most of her shit together (unlike yours truly). Ann is, in a way, a version of me who is someway perfect. Ann is someone i can idolize (even if she's me in a way), she's smart, pretty and most of the things i want to be.

From the last chapter you can probably tell that Ann is the mom friend and is a parental figure to a few people (eight to be specific), that is all true when you look at me. Mom friend? Yes. Called 'Mom' by a few people? Yep. Constantly about to lose your shit and feel like dying every single hour and or day and probably also really depressed but still somehow alive? Absolutely-

Me everyday:

(Artist: folsell_)

(Edit: Eli Lau)

Ofcourse i know that no one is perfect and being perfect is irrational because every one is perfect in their own way and all but like... I think i lost my train of thought– Anyway, have a meme about my sadness;