Looking back on the memories we created together, on trying to remember the words in those conversations we had, and on every support we'd given for each other, I always try to convince myself that ending it all had always been the right choice. Some things might now be irreversible, seeing that gate you built has already been so high, realizing it was built for everyone to come in but me. But I'm okay with it. You don't have to worry. Because the moment I learned that I was out of the equation was already the moment that I felt used to being left out by you.
You tried to patch things up while you're still hurt. And I'm sorry that I didn't have the chance to see that, while I was too busy working on myself. You became one of the persons I looked up to with your determination and passion for stepping into the future you always wanted. You're very thoughtful in making someone feel special, and I owe all those things to you until the last moment that I am still part of your memory.
You became my friend. We've come to know each other, even just a bit of us. You became my friend. We've shared each other's struggles as college freshmen, conquering every task and deadline, and praying for those folded blue books. You became my friend. We've been partners in every class activity and moment. I'm really thankful that you choose me to be with, on those countless times.
It turns out our friendship has an expiration date. It might be hurtful, but letting go felt like the best choice. Complicated things were left complicated, unheard thoughts were left unheard, and the things we wished to do together were left in a pend. Sometimes life just turns around the way we don't want it to be. But please don't let this letter burden you, because all I want for you is to make the decision that makes you happy. I wish that you'll be able to be your dream person and have the dream life you've once described to me. Remember that I will always be silently cheering up for you, Atty. Whether we might've hurt each other before, might be now, or might be in the future, I wanted to tell you that I will always remember those times with you, and I will never take those bad times against you.
Of all the things I wish I was, I always hope, that even for just a minute of those days we had, I once became your friend too.
