School is fucking boring, don't you agree. I feel like its useless, after the 10th grade or so like after we finished our O/ls its just no use anymore. Cos like we have the general knowledge and its time to go out and enjoy life. I want to do these things but its never possible, cos the surrounding I grew up in is much more traditional and shit you know..so everything that is supposed to happen in life happens much later unlike the western countries. I mean I want to do teenage stuff while I'm still a teenager and not when I become an adult...I mean its not like we can do adult stuff when we are adults. so I guess that's one of the reasons that life is a bitch.
you know within a few months I kinda experienced depression but just mild I guess ...I don't know what it was but it felt fucking weird ...like I think it was depression but anyways I didn't take it into my mind that much so it just passed away. and soon after that, I had this urge to try drugs and shit I mean I know nothing about these stuff but I really wanted to try but unfortunately or fortunately, I don't really know any dealer to buy from ....its kinda funny to me cos like we talk this type of shit very serious with our friends but don't really know anything.
That phase was over which lasted around a month or so......I was dead bored so I stared using Omegle which was nice but it was all horny people and I really wanted to socialize but like through text cos I'm kind of a introvert. Anyways I sexted and made some friends and some of them shared their nudes for me to rate them, which was kind of fun cos generally I'm a quite person and this was a new experience .... tbh all I want is someone who can relate to me not a lover or anything but like a friend to dish about things ...or maybe even a FWB cos like I'm still a virgin and wanna loose that as fast as possible... for those people who are virgins and aren't able to loose it cos of corona and shit I feel you buddy.
yeah anyways, I just wanted to write something so there you go ..bye bye
