A Life Of Mistakes

Chapter 6

I get to school around 7:30. Everybody was coming up to me anxious to know everything that happened. I told my friends, but the only thing I could really focus on was getting with the girl I had in mind. She was my bestfriend in the 6th grade. Her name is Joselyn. We stopped talking as much because I was always in trouble and she doesn't like hood niggas. I wasn't really stun her like that anyway. But I have to admit she was fine as hell. She still is. She's about 5'2, brown skin, thick, and has hazel eyes. It's like when I stare into her eyes it does something to me that I cant explain.

I take 4th period with her and I cant wait to see her.

- 3rd period-

Man it seems like the day isn't going by fast enough. Im not really sure what I'm going to say but im gonna get her.We have about minutes left in class. Let me gather my words for her.

Five minutes later the bell run. I started feeling butterflies in my stomach. I'm a little nervous because it's like she's special and I don't want to mess this up.

I walk into class and today I decided to sit by her in the back.

Hey, I said with a little smile.

Hey, she said with a little back.

I came to talk to you because I know I've been doing wrong in the past but I've changed my life around. I want us to be close like we were in the 6th grade. Well.. Closer than that I said with a smile.

She blushed super hard. If you're serious then I'm willing to give it a try. I actually liked you back then but you were to blind to see it.

I know. I was too busy doing other things to see that I had a great girl right in front of me. Call I call you later?

Sure. Let me see your phone so I can put my number in.

Alright. Ill talk to you later.

- A Month Later -

Joselyn and I have been talking heavily for a month now. I invited her to my house and she invited me over hers. We've been talking about sex but we just been waiting for the right time. I bet her shit super wet. I been thinking about fucking her for the longest I cant wait much longer. It's going to be her first time so I have to be gentle.

I get to school and Joselyn and I sit in the auditorium away from everybody else.

Joselyn: Come by my house right after school. I think I'm ready.

In my head I'm thinking this is it. Shit is about to get real us.

After school I stopped by Quan and Dee house to see what wassup with them for a minute then I went straight to her house. I was already prepared. I kept a condom in my wallet. I knocked on the door. I was so anxious to get in.

When she opened the door all I could do was look into her sexy eyes.

You just gonna stand there and look at me or are you gonna come in and get what you've been waiting on?

That question turned me on. I walked in quickly and shut the door.

We walked to her room. We kissed intensively as soon as we got into her room. Laid her body on the bed gently. I started kissing on her neck and worked my way down to her panties. I pulled everything she had on off. I started back kissing where I left off. I started eating her desert. She started moaning. I kept going until she tapped out.

She pulled my clothes off for me. She got right to it. She gave me the best head of my life. My toes started to curl. She said it was her first time, but sucked me like it was her last.

When we finished oral I put my condom on. We were both hot and ready.

Are you sure you're ready?

Yes, she moaned.

I dropped that grown man in her nice and slow. She moaned louder and louder. She yelled out deeper and deeper so I gave her what she asked for. We went on for about 20 more minutes. Afterwards we kissed and I went home.

- A month later -

Joselyn and I have been having sex a lot lately. Today she said she had something deep to tell me. I'm a little nervous to hear what it is.

I got to her house around 5:30. She sat me on the couch to tell me what was up.

Baby?

Yes I said in a nervously, confused way.

Well this isn't easy for me to tell you. Promise me you wont get mad. She begin to cry.

Baby I promise I won't be mad! Just tell me what's going on. I tried my best to comfort her.

Okay. Well when I was young my father wanted a girl for some odd reason. So one day he picked me up from my mother and told her he was taking me to get a checkup and the doctors office. So I packed some clothes to stay the night at his house. I went to the doctors office and they took me to the back. They put me to sleep and when I woke up and I was a girl. She started to cry. I use to be a boy! I'm a transgender.

My heart stopped for a second. I was soo pissed on the inside. I wanted to kill this bitch.

Why didn't you tell me?!

I'm sorry! I felt that you wouldn't want me then.

I felt so disgusted.

I calmed down a bit. Look baby, I still love you. I don't even care anymore. This wont stop me from loving you. I just need some time to think. I'll see you tomorrow.

I walked home. My mind was racing. All I could say in my head was Damn. I been fucking a man this whole time.