Do you hate having brothers and sisters? I do sometime, so I be writing from time to vent out my angry and sadness. Let start with first younger sister. Let call her Heather. She is a selfish, rotten, spoiled, attention seeking brat. She never really help out with chores, or taking care of dog. It is alway on me. I have to share a room with her. She is so gross. She never cleans up her side. Her clothes are everywhere. Her dirtying and cleans mix together. Her bags are everywhere. Her bed is a mess. Her school supplies all over her desk. Makeup all over it. Don't get me started on the bathroom. Trash everywhere. She always use my desk, and I told her not too. It not my fault she's a pig.
We are mexican, so when we went to a white school, she became white trash. She have rudes friends, and act them. She even disrepected our mother. She begged our mom to lend her friends 40 bucks. That was like 8 months ago. That friend just pay my mother. When my mom asked about, she took her friend side. My mother is always helping use. She want to act like her so called friends. She can leave and live with them. She get her own place. Or she can pay my mom rent, if she going to disrepectful. She already eighteen, and she think she's big bad. She is so whinning.
She never listen to me. I am always cleaning and cooking. When I ask her put on headphones, she tells me no in a rude voice. She sings at the top of her lungs just to annoyed me and others brother and sister. She is so bad at singing. Her voice sound like a cat getting step on. I know she alway believe she better then me. It is always bother me. She make feel stupid, ugly, hated, worthless, unlove. She is of the reason why I want to hurt myself. I cut my wrists and just watch the blood drip down to the into a puddle. Or to take all my meds and sleep forever. Or maybe drown myself.
She said I do nothing. I feel hurt by that. I cleaning, cooking, taking care of my dog. She is always our dog is ugly, or hitting her. I barely even ask them to take her out. I just aske them to feed when I take her on a walk. They never do and I always do by myself. I'm afriad of her. I feel like she going hurt me. Slap me, punch me, pull my hair. I want to get job, but want to be far. I don't to want to be a bother. She made me feel so worthless, and ugly. I just to drop dead or jump off a building. Get hit by a car or shot at. Maybe get COVID or into a coma. What she does and how she make me feel like this. If you feel the same or want to give adivce left me a comment.
