Drunk

Niall's prolouge

Everything ends. I knew that. I knew all this would end. Everything I ever loved vanishing, fading right in front of me. It's a good thing the beginning was perfect enough to remember forever.

~

3 years ago:

I looked into the crowd, for the very last time. As the lads and I finished our last song we all got in a group hug, tears in our eyes.

"Thanks you all for supporting us through the years. We love you all." Liam managed to choke up to the crowd.

"It's been a good few years." Harry smiled as he cried. We all told our fans we loved them one last time. And left the stage. I already felt like a piece of myself was missing.

"Hey you'll all be coming to my wedding, right" Louis tried to brighten the mood.

"Of course! It isn't for a couple months though bud." Zayn and Louis started their banter. But this didn't feel right, something made me uneasy.

"You okay Niall?" I looked up to Liam's big brown eyes looking into mine and all the others looking at me too.

"Yeah.. I... I'm just gonna miss this." I walked to the cooler beside me and shuffled through the ice until I found what I was looking for. Popping the cap to the ice cold beer.

"We'll keep in touch. I'm sure we'll be spending every day together until the day we die!" Harry patted my back. "This could be a new beginning for all of us"

~

1 years ago:

"Lindsey! Fucking get back here!" I reached out to grab her but the alcohol made three of her so instead I stumbled to the floor.

"Look at you you're pathetic." I stumbled back up.

"No baby, I'll um I, what happened again?" My mind was a blur and my words were slurred

"What happened? Where should I start? Tonight or every other night the past 2 years? Let's start off with you coming home every night shit faced drunk."

"I barely ever get drunk." I poked her playfully but her expression held nothing but anger.

"What happened to you?"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"I think you do. Ever since you stopped talking to..."

"I don't need them!" My voice raised and I punched the wall making a hole.

"You're fucking insane, we're done Niall. Goodbye."

"But Lindsey." And then she was gone. My girlfriend of 4 years had walked out on me.

~

Present day:

I woke up and sat on the edge of my bed. A massive hangover falling over my as I cupped my hands over my pounding head. I heard a rustling next to me to see who I had brought home from the club that night. Sooner or later she'd wake up and leave my flat to take a ride on the walk of shame.

Continuing the daily routine I made my way to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee. I also got out the ingredients to make a drink for my hangover. A blonde head of hair rushed past me but stopped as she was spotted.

"Oh hi I was."

"It's fine ,bye brittany."

"It's beth."

"Bye beth." She looked angry but frankly I didn't care. Everyone in the world was angry at me but I let all emotions go years ago.

I turned on my tv to fill the silence, instantly regretting it.

"Ex boybander Louis Tomlinson and his wife delivered a baby girl last night who they named Lily. How cute is she?" The tv reporters had a conversation on Louis and his baby and wife when I heard my name.

"Bad news for the other One Direction member Niall Horan though, what's up with him?"

"Yeah every night we get more and more pictures of him coming out of a club with a new girl."

"The band ending and his break up must've hit him hard."

"Fuck you!"Enraged I threw my coffee mug at the tv shattering it. I needed a new tv anyway.

I was so fucking tired of still having my face plastered on everything. I'm done with that worthless piece of shit boyband and they were done with me. But I would still see merch everywhere, my face on the front pages of magazines and talk shows saying how much of a fuck up I am. I know I'm a fuck up thanks for reminding me. No one wanted anything to do with me. Not my friends, or my family. But I found a way to get over all that. And that was to not care so I didn't and I don't plan on doing it anytime soon. Because caring means you've brought someone into your life who will eventually leave and I'm not going through that again.