Blackbear x Reader

Im ok

Blackbears p.o.v

i woke up and looked around the room and notice it wasnt my bed, it wasnt even my room. i looked at the beeping noise and it was a machine. i knew i was in the hospital. wait is sarah ok i thought to myself. a nurse came in and gasp and ran out of the room. i just had a dumb look on my face as i sat up slowly and took the water on the stand and drunk it fast.

¨mr.musto, hi how are you feeling¨ the doctor said walking in, ¨oh im fine, uh is sarah here¨ i asked with a worry tone in my voice, ¨sarah who?....¨the doctor relpy back ¨sarah collins¨ i said back, ¨oh......um¨ the doctor said looking down. ¨what is it, is she fine, did she get hurt¨ i said staring at the doctor now, ¨um well i uh¨ the doctor said stalling to whatever she was hiding, ¨tell me now or i will find out myself¨ i said getting really mad and i head the machine beeping a little faster because i was getting mad and i was breathing a little more faster because i was scared about sarah, ¨oh sir calm down and i will tell you¨ the doctor said looking at me now. ¨ok then tell me now¨ i said a little harshly and the doctor took a step back and cleared her throat.¨um well miss sarah had a little accident yesterday after we sent her home¨ the doctor said now looking away from me. i froze in my place, ¨what do you mean she was in a little accident yesterday¨ i said as i couldnt think straight. ¨well after she went home, she told her friends that they can leave and so they did and then after about an hour later her friends got a tweet and the tweet was from her and then after they read it they drove to her house and found her laying in her bathroom bleeding half to death¨the doctor said looking at me. ¨WHAT DO YOU MEAN, WHY WAS SHE BLEEDING¨i yelled at the doctor, and she looked down,¨she cutted herself all over her arms¨ the doctor said

i could not believe what i was hearing. i snached my phone and went to her twitter and seen her last post. i read what she wrote and my heart broke.

@Bunnybae: i cant live if he wont wake up....i just wanna die right now....😭💔🔪

i kept reading it over and over as i felt my tears roll down my face.

¨is she awake, is she ok ¨ i said looking up at the doctor. ¨yes she is fine, she can go home when she wakes up. but she will need to take some pain pills to keep the pain down¨the doctor said nodding her head. ¨can i go home too¨ i said getting up. ¨uh yes sir, but you need to sign this to be able to leave¨ she said handing me the papers and i signed them, ¨uh what room is she in¨ i said giving her the papers back. ¨uh room 406¨ the doctor said smiling, ¨uh thanks¨i said and she left as she closed the door behind her

i changed into my regular clothes i guess Kelly or Dom brought me. i left my room and went to the room the doctor said that she was in. i walked in there and she looked really pale in  the face. my heart fluttered even when she was at her worst. i rubed her head and smiled to myself. god i love her i said to myself. wait what am i even saying, i never said i love you to a girl. Sarah had me falling hard. i never felt this way for no one. but why now. what made me change, why does she make me feel like this. it makes me so mad. but looking at her makes me wanna kiss her.

i leaned down and placed a small kiss on her forehead. i signed as i just look at her. but then her eyes fluttered open and i stared at her as she looked at her.

¨b-bear¨i said as i grabed her hand, ¨yes¨ i said back, ¨BEAR OH MY GOD YOUR ALIVE¨ she said jumping into my arms and i stumbled back but caught my balance and held her and i heard her start crying.¨ofc im alive, you think i was already gonna leave you¨i said with a chuckld. ¨yes you dip shit, i thought i would never hear your voice, i thought you was gonna leave me without giving me a warning¨ she said sniffing.¨im sorry its just that my chronic pancreatitis was giving me flare ups¨ i said softly.¨i-i know im sorry i just-¨ she was about to say but i cut her off. ¨hey its fine nothing is your fault ok, i wanted to help you. lets go home ok¨i said to her 

she nodded and i pulled away just so i can look at her in the face. she looked back at me and buried her face in my neck and i gasp but i covered my mouth before she could hear me. i wraped my other arm around her. i felt my face heat up, as i felt myself get hard.