healed souls

✨jealousy,jealousy✨

i stayed back at camp as henry and peter checked on wendy because 'she's sick', i'm a rock in a hard place right now,i need to tell henry the truth,but i can't if i don't exactly know what's fully going on,i just know its not what peters telling us,or at least henry,the island isn't dying,or at least i don't think it is,our family's here,and my half brother is alive,wendy confirmed something else is going on but because of peter she most likely wont say,i can't go to felix,despite him being my best friend his loyalty to pan is 100% and i can't confront peter himself because that wouldn't end good,with my short temper,and his stubbornness we would get no where and the only thing that i would accomplish is starting a fight between us,i groaned as i put my face in my hands 

'i'm screwed' 

"whats troubling you?" i jump at felix's voice,think of him and he'll come i guess.

 "just my brain being my brain" i lied and gave a slight smile

 "care to elaborate" his face told me he didn't believe me 

"just everything i guess,the island dying,running out of magic,me and henry finding a girl named wendy" i lied again to make it believable,two can play at that game,felix nodded "did you know about her? wendy i mean?" i asked after a few seconds of silence

 "yeah" was his simple answer

 "why didn't you tell me?" i asked

 "i didnt want this to happen" he gestured to me and i was majorly confused

 "didn't want what to happen?" 

"for you to get jealous" he smirked and i let out a laugh/scoff

 "okay,i am not jealous of wendy " i defended myself

 "sure,because thats totally not why your face turns as red as a tomato when you say her name,and why you say it with so much venom" his smirk never leave his face

 "its different with another girl here okay" besides emma,regina,and mary margaret but i think you get the idea. 

"i'm not sure who's more stubborn,you or pan,you know I'm right you just don't want to admit it,you're too egotistical" 

i scoff again "and you're not?" i fire back 

"calm down spit fire,i'm just saying what i see,i know you" 

"well apparently not enough scar face,because I'm not jealous" i cross my arms and pout slightly 

"whatever you think" he shakes his head amusedly before getting up and walking away. 

pfttt,i'm not jealous...am i? my face slowly morphed into horror

  'oh my god, i'm jealous' 

"oh for fuck sake" i whispered and poofed myself into peters thinking tree,i always liked this tree,it wasn't a normal tree,obviously i mean nothing is normal here,the tree was huge and had places to sit and to walk around,i sat down on the wooden platform on the tree feeling sad about myself like usual

"i kinda wanna throw my phone
across the room,cause all i see are girls too good to be true,with papa we white teeth and perfect bodies,wish i didn't care,i know that beauty is not my lack,but it feels like that weight is on my back and i can't let it go"

am i really singing my feelings? what is this a princess movie? there's no going back now i guess

"com-comparison,is killing me slowly i think i think too much,'bout kids that don't know me,i'm so sick of myself,rather be rather be,anyone,anyone else,but jealousy,jealousy,started following me"

i got up and started walking around,skimming my
hands across branches,leafs,and flowers.

"blue eyes,see everyone getting all the things i want,i'm happy for them but then again i'm not,just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos,i can't stand it oh god i sound crazy"

i chuckled to myself

"their winning is not my loss i know it's true but i can't help getting caught,up in the com-comparison,is killing me slowly,i think i think too much 'bout kids who don't know me,i'm so sick of myself,rather be,rather be,anyone,anyone else,but jealously,jealousy,oh"

i rolled my eyes

"all your friends are so cool,you go out every night,in your daddy's nice car yeah you're living the life,got a pretty face,pretty boyfriend too,i wanna be you so bad and i don't even know you,all i see is what i should be,happier,prettier,jealousy,jealousy! all i see is what i should be i'm positive  all i get is jealousy! jealousy!"

i half shout the ending part,i take a deep breath and lean my forehead against the bark of a tree

"com-comparison,is killing me
slowly,i think i think too much 'bout kids who don't know me,i'm so sick of myself,rather be,rather be,anyone,anyone else,but jealousy, jealousy started following me"

i finally finished and jumped slightly when i heard slow clapping,i turn around to see peter looking all smug "well that was quite a show" 

i roll my eyes slightly and turn away from him 

"well it wasn't exactly meant to be heard" i mumbled

 "need to tell me something love?" i can basically hear the smirk on his face,without answering i huff and try to get down from the tree but he grabbed my wrist,stopping me 

"i've been waiting for you for a very,very long time and you think i'm gonna go chase after someone else?" he asked and i shrugged

 "wouldn't surprise me,everyone else left,its only a matter of time when you leave too" i saw his expression soften

 "is that really what you think?" i just looked down,suddenly feeling stupid, i heard him sigh before he lifted my chin with his pointer finger and thumb "bailey you know i'll never leave you,i'll love you for eternity,time stands still right? so we have all the time in the world" 

i nodded "of course" 

i'm not sure if i meant it or not though,do i stay on this island with my one true love,or do i leave neverland,probably for good and go with my family? i quickly hugged him,not wanting to let go,no matter my decision,one of us is gonna get their heart broken...or both

 "i love you peter" i whisper 

"i love you more" he pulled away,cupping my cheeks and leaned in for a passionate kiss,more passionate than all the kisses we've shared since i got here,our lips molded together as i wrap my arms around his neck and weave my fingers into his dirty blonde hair,i felt him gently grip my hips and pull me flush against his chest as the kissed deepened,after a few seconds we pull away,both of us breathless

 "no need to be jealous" he winked

 "annddd you ruined the moment" i shook my head with a smile

a/n:kinda cringed at writing this,i'm not to sure how i feel about her singing anymore but if you like it i'll continue i guess?😂