street lights

chapter one

i was walking home. i felt the cold October breeze blow through my hair, the tip of my nose cold as usual. glancing up at the yellow street lights as music played through my earbuds all i could think about was him and what just happened.

a few hours earlier

i was silently crying to myself, my cousin was going to pick me up to take me to a football game. we do this every friday but this time it was a homecoming game and forgot to get me on her way to it.

i knew it was just a mistake and she was busy but i was still sad.

i had been ready to go sense this morning. i had nice baggy jeans on with a grey long sleeve crop top. i thought i looked quite cute.

but sense i now had to reason to be wearing it i put on red plaid pjs instead of jeans. i still wanted to look cute even if i was just going to go to sleep.

i checked my phone "7:40" it read with a few notifications. i skimmed over them when a certain name caught my eye, Ashton. i rubbed my slightly teary eyes and opened the text.

"i j got home bored asf"
"rlly wish i got to see you today"

i smiled to myself a bit. idk what it was about him but he made me feel comfy, like nothing was wrong and i was just meant to be here. with him.

i heard my dad and my grandpa talking about some sports game that was on from the living room. i wondered if it was still possible to see him...

"me too :)"
"imma see if i can go for a walk or sum i don't wanna be home rn"

i pressed send and set my phone on my bed. i hate asking my dad to do anything because i never know if it's going to start an argument or not.

most of the time i j yell at him where i'm going and then leave but sense it's dark already i can't.

i sat down besides him on the couch watching the game for a bit. baseball, yay. ive never really been into sports nor get how people can watch it for hours and get so excited.

"hey um i was wondering if i could go to starbucks?" i asked not looking at him kinda just around him. "right now?" he asked. i nodded "and u wanna walk? you don't want me to drive you?" i said yes and explained how i was mostly going for the walk anyways. he agreed but i had to be back at 9pm and it was almost 7:50pm. i smiled and thanked him as i jumped up off the couch.

i got to my room and put on my favorite musty black converse. they were worn out and quite dirty but i've only had them for a month or two.

i threw on a black zip up from my favorite fast food place and made sure i had a mask, my phone, and earbuds.

there were very few things that made me as at peace as listening to music at full volume walking around in the dark as the roads only illuminated by the moon and streetlights.

i unlocked the door and stood outside, instantly feeling the cold fall air nip around at my skin. i loved it. i didn't like being cold i just liked the cold.

i started waking down the street as put in my earbuds and checked for texts on my phone.

"where r u going maybe i could come see u"

i smiled.

"just the starbucks"
"kinda want some tea or sum"

i watched as the little text bubble popped up to signal he was typing. i really wanted to see him, i felt out of place when i go too long without seeing him. even though i had spent almost all of yesterday with him...