My heart was broken to please you
My mind strained
My heart tested and persevered
in ways unknown to it before
There is no satisfaction in this stunted growth
I’ve imprisoned myself to doing my best to love a man
who can’t love me back the way I need him to
The way I deserve..
You’ve always had the knowledge of my dreams
You just decided not to be a part of them
You chose the world in spaces where you could've chose me. Now the world is beating you down.
Felt Lost and i looked for you yet Nowhere to be found.
You knew i was there but never cared.
20 decades of your Life living lavish and unbothered
Were the decades where i was splashing tears calling out your name
Never took even the smallest part of your brains to Reminisce about me.
(Still what would you have seen ? Huh? A 3 months old baby Girl that hasn't found her image?)
Never had a chance to dance to your favorite songs with your one and Only BabyGirl.
(That's why you cant even describe me you dont know who i am)
Im 4 days to 21 and all i could ever think of is why you sold me to the world.
Had you been present enough to Love , Guide and protect me i wouldn't have walked that part.
( Not to say you would've stopped me but it would've made a difference maybe the world could've waited a bit longer before it could stamp me down)
Look I've Grown now , Grown to the person my mother molded me to.
Grown to the woman i saw in action , I loved that woman she is fierce , Bravehearted , took all the burden and carried it , became both a mother and a father at once , she is both hell fire and Holy water.
Ive grown :
I understand things better now, I've come around.
(Something that you failed without trying)
I was Going to be a burden and a barrier to your Lavish life.
(Atleast that time you did what made you feel free , you put yourself first)
Now im also doing what free's my heart , Im putting myself first.
( They say an apple doesn't grow far from its Tree , i took after you)
Well here's what ..
Im a b**h that doesnt forgive or forget
(Yeah f**k peace and humanity)
I dont get over thing's just to pass time i do them for me and me first, big ups!.. thats what you taught me atleast i lived up to this far to practice it)
You're Bad for whoever has or had you. You're Toxic and don't deserve Health and Healing Stay sick and Die.
Thabelo munyai.
